Thoughts of him gets me in the zone
Ink drips from my pen
Between my legs he can swim
Deep diving
Stimulates my mental , my physical
I lose control
There’s no stopping
My flow mirrors the image of his strokes
Its exciting
Satisfaction guaranteed
He came inside me

Guilt trip as his ***** slipped inside of me
Instant pleasure cause it's been so long
But somehow my conscious said it was wrong
If Adultery was a crime
I would serve a life sentence
As his lips touch my mouth, my breast, and my other set of lips
This rush
The excitement of it all
I took a pause and told him to stop
How could I do this to you
Silence as I drove home
When my car parked
I had to come to the realization that I'm not even your girl

Dig deep he said
But I couldnt
This feeling cant be forced
Grab a shovel he said
My emotions are 6 feet under
To complex to understand
Each dig in the dirt
Is peeling back a layer of my skin
Its hurts
These feelings that are buried inside
But not by choice
My inspiration and I use to breathe in the same air
Since he's been gone
Not dead..he just moved on
It's been difficult to harvest words
To make it make sense
Now standing in front of this grave
With a pile of words fitting my emotional description to the right side
Not now
I'll get back to this later

He created a secret profile
and admired her from a distance
Although he lived next door
Afraid to approach her scared of what she might say
Peeks out the window
To watch her hips sway from side to side
Then places his hand in his pants
Imagining the motion
In his head she created this love potion formulated only for him
Eyes stuck to her like gorilla glue
Fixated
Dark
Twisted

He eats me up like a dinner at a five star restaurant
Can’t deny that my taste is flavorful
No need to make reservations
When I’m all he’s craving for
Devouring this feast
Had to tell him to slow down
The plate in front of him wasn’t going anywhere

I got acquainted with a lost soul but he didn’t know it
My purpose was to guide him
Exposed himself to his self
Now all the looks in the mirror confuses him day by day
I reeled him in grabbed his chest
Now his heart is in my hand
Not only talks of reassurance
I had to show him
What it meant to be loved with no strings attached
What it felt like to be cared for
Honesty and truth was nothing to be afraid of
Just like an angel
I was sent from above
We smiled, laughed and had deep conversations
All this came about with no *******
Living in a generation that’s unable to separate reality from fantasy
This strange encounter was meant to be
I opened him from the inside out
Now when he looks at his reflection
He smiles

Murdered soul
Left behind evidence
Pled not guilty
Prosecuted by feelings
When defending the heart
Law of attraction
Judged by actions
Traumatic trial
Due to reasonable doubt
Emotional jury
Based on facts
Imprisoned by love
Served a life sentence

i can write a poem just the way you look
Ripped jeans symbolize your ripped soul
Tattoos to band aid a broken-heart
Red lips, thick hips
Hidden damaged relationships
Taking strolls with views of the ocean helps visualize your dreams
Hand to cover the sun
That's how bright you'll be
Young, beautiful , talented
The scars in between
Created multiple personalities

Have you ever
found yourself
hiding from
the truth?
**** creeps up on you
like a monster
Without the boo
Finds you in the closet
Curled like an embryo
A divine intervention
no physical presence
this encounter was inevitable
feeling shook
no book could prepare you for
Past meeting with the present
For a conversation you wasnt ready for
Reflection caused a reaction of rage
Reminiscing on the road down this path
Smiling now, cause all you can do is laugh
Living.
Learning.
Life Lessons.

The feel of moisture
the simple thought has me soaked
like a wet rag
A drenching cloth
wanting to be dried
Drain me out
supply the pipe
pain with pleasure
tears dripping
the magnitude of
this magnificent moment is magical
thoughts of riding like a wild horse
slow but steady
bouncing up and down.
holding on tight
seeing the peak approaching in your eyes.
this new found experience
have you coming back for more

when you said you didn't care
It crushed me
I crumbled into pieces.
Shattered like broken glass
sadness devoured me.
The harshness in your tone
the cruelty in your voice.
hidden evils suddenly exposed
showed no compassion
nor sympathy

Empty truths now filled with lies
puzzled thoughts
As I put the pieces together
Realizing I've been mind trapped
like walking through a haunted house
escaping to the door
I must get out!

our disconnect caused me not to write for awhile
I wonder if I had more feelings for you then I intended to
pretending that everything was cool
When deep inside I really wanted you
one day without talking seemed like an eternity
but soon those days turned into weeks, now it's been months.
What did I miss?
what did I not see?
the title waves
sent you on your way
now Im lost at sea.
you knew what it was from the beginning but I didn't
finding myself researching our Zodiac signs said it would be different.
Ignored the Red Flags
only because I thought you and I were more.
Action speak louder than words
I NEEDED those words
those words flowing from your lips, that I once kissed then tell you I wanted more.
Never been the one to hold back my emotions
Ive done that before , that **** ended in commotion
Reminding myself its okay to be vulnerable
What is there to lose?
now this writing is more comfortable.

His purpose was to reintroduce me to....poetry

You penetrate my mind
Opening me up
Stroking my brain
Your words are divine
So much wisdom and knowledge
You come inside me
Explore the depths of my sea
You're a true visionary
Refusing to let go
As you dive within me
Thrusting those words
When I'm fully absorbed
You kiss me softly.