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Violet Blue Jun 2015
Sad
I'm sad
I don't know why
I do
It's a lot of things actually
The fear of losing him
The fear we won't be close anymore after this year
If he leaves after this year
I'm not ready for that
I also don't know what to say to her
To ease her mind
To make her feel wanted and that I care
She's my best friend
But I can't  tell her
I'm still afraid of getting bullied
I'm still afraid people are judging me
All the time
It's painful
I'm confused
Hurt
Scared

**BROKEN
Violet Blue Jun 2015
What am I supposed to say?
What am I supposed to do?
When all I can think is
All the times you shut me down
Didn't think I cared
Tried so hard to show you I did
But it didn't work
When you got angry at me
And I didn't know why
You told me to open my eyes
You swore at me
Just like they did
Just the same way I've been hurt in the past
If you push me away enough
I'll eventually leave you
There's only so much
One person can take love
I hang out with this group
You're not very fond of
But when I'm with them
everything bad goes away for a while
They help me forget
I love them with everything I have
You don't understand that
I don't understand you a lot
  Jun 2015 Violet Blue
Nikita
She had the face of a doll
She had the body of a dancer
She had sunkissed skin and deep brown eyes as though she saw through layers of rich chocolate

She was as delicate as fine China
She was as kind as a sweet old lady
She was very young though, too young to be as beautiful as she was

The prettiest flowers are always picked first
By picked we don't understand that this means ripping the flower away from the earth and taking its life away too

And even at such a young age she was definately picked
She was bullied
She was abused
And with each insult and each rumour a wall was slowly built
Brick by brick
Her kindness quickly faded away
For how else was she supposed to protect herself



And they wonder why the prettiest are the meanest.
Violet Blue Jun 2015
You
There's so much I could say I don't know where to start. I like how much you care for me and I don't know why you care for me so much or how  deserve you but I can't even begin to tell you how grateful I am. I like how protective you are of me you always have my back ALWAYS even when you can't be there you're still there for me through messaging me. I like how you message me good morning just to check on me and see how I was and if everything was alright. I like how you messaged me every time I go on road trips and tell me to stay safe everyday and message me when I'm travelling there and home and make sure I get home safely every time we walk somewhere at night. I like how you made me keep that promise to keep me safe at night. I love how we tell each other stuff and how I can trust you with anything and I can tell you anything. I like how we fight about the silliest things they aren't even real arguments just us joking around pretending to be mad at each other when we're not and one of us sneaks a look at the other and smiles and the other person catches us and we know we can never be angry at each other. I love how we share the same morals and i don't really know what to say there's too many things I like about you. I like the way you hug me slowly and tightly and you don't let go for ages long enough for me to feel your warmth and appreciate the moment and even long enough for a small conversation in each others ear. I like the way you say goodnight to me it helps me sleep with ease of knowing I still have you.  The truth is I'm scared of losing you so scared I've never been so scared of losing someone in my life. I need you in my life I can't lose you not now not ever please never leave. I'll miss your touch, your icy fingertips touching my knee comforting me making sure I'm alright, I'll miss being able to sleep on your shoulder feeling your warmth on my cheek and you softly talking to me so no one else can **** in our conversation, I'll miss the way we put our arms around each other and walk together to protect each other, the way you whisper in my ear and scare the **** out of me to point out some imaginary thing in the bush when it's dark just to scare me so I get scared and bump into you so you can laugh and put your arm around my shoulders and we'll laugh together, I'll miss the way you sit closer to me when it's cold and offer your jacket to me, I'll miss your quiet comments in my ear when we're watching plays together, I'll miss our stupid little conversations when we're mad at each other but still want to talk but we're not really mad at each other just pretending to because you know I can't stay mad at you if you flash your big cheesy smile at me and you know it gets me every time, I'll miss the way you look deeply into my eyes when your looking at me and talking to me so please never leave or a part of me will leave with you
Violet Blue Jun 2015
I can't seem to
Tell you how I feel
But it hurts how much I care for you
I've never been so afraid of losing one person
In my entire life
You mean the entire world to me
Everything you've done
Makes me feel more for you
Everyday
And when your gone
It's as if a lot is missing
Half of me is gone
As they say absence
makes the heart grow stronger
And they're right you know
Because God did I miss you
Violet Blue Jun 2015
I can't even seem to type
what I feel right now
I know what  want to say
But the words won't come out
Through my poetry
Violet Blue Jun 2015
Why does it hurt to love someone
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