I never thought I would hurt this much.
the thought of loneliness is overpowering.
Because of you I'm Hurting
and because of you I cry
because of you i scream.
the pain of defeat is overwhelming.
the thought of you breaks my heart,
and the thought of you is sickening

I watch your mouth move
but nothing you say makes any sense
the words spin around my head
laughing
taunting
nothing comprehends
everything spins like snow caught in the wind
my eyes are
blank
my head is
empty
suddenly everything falls into place
i close my eyes i do not want to know
i do not want to understand
my confusion turns to
hurt
and then into blind
rage
the words are suddenly like
daggers
stabbing at my heart
making sure nothing of me is left unharmed
my heart feels as if its bleeding
everything leaks out of me
all of the life in me fades away
your mouth stops moving
your eyes look over me
the pain
the hurt
the anger
it all shows, i cannot hide it
tears fall down my face
like a waterfall but yet not as beautiful
everything blurs
i let everything show
so you understand so you finally know
what you do to me
as i come to senses i start to let go
let go of everything
let go of your words
let go of you
i am done
i am through