You know what the minute you told me that
I had the chance to be with you,
I took that opportunity even if
It means I have to shrink myself
So i could fit into your chaotic world.

You know what everyone knows that
I fought for you;
I tried to keep the fire alive,
But it felt like you were being suffocated.
You needed air so badly that you
Left without even pouring water in me.

You know what it ***** how you played
The game fair and square but it seems like
It's not enough and that you're not enough
To satisfy the empty spaces between you
And that person.

You know what I spent half a year,
Caught up with you;
Caught with your lies,
Caught with all your petty drama.

Maybe  I will never be what you need.
Maybe we don't really know what we want.
Maybe we don't want something that will last.
Maybe we only want someone there temporarily.
Maybe out all of the ''maybe's'' we're not made for each other.

If it took me a year to find you,
I can sure find someone who'd
Fall for me.
Fall for all my insecurities,
Fall for the things you once took for granted.

Maybe then you'll see how foolish you are
For letting someone who gave everything
For you out of your life.

So remind yourself every single day that
You're still lucky;
Still lucky to be alive.
Maybe somewhere beneath this sadness
Someone is waiting for you.

I remember spending ever waking moment,
Re-calling every word you left me.
I remember how it actually felt to have someone
You can talk about anything.

I remember how you could easily make everything
Better by just a snap of your fingers.
I remember how easy it was to reveal every inch
Of myself to you.

Absence feels like light years but I haven't
Seen you in months and I wonder if you
Believe in a parallel universe where
Things worked out for us.

I've carried all these memories in me,
For what?
For my attempt to find true love?
Find something that would make feel alive?

You had me stucked on to you like gravity,
Made me wonder if you had feelings for me,
Wonder if this love I had was real.

You've destroyed any potential lover for me.
No one compares to you and the universe that you are.
I guess, the bitter irony of it all is that even if
I've convinced myself I'm over you,
I'd let you back in if you ever came back.


I have nothing else to hold on too,
So instead I twitter stalk you every once in a while
Trying to reassure myself that you are somehow still alive.
I have checked every tweets thinking maybe just maybe
He'd knock some sense into my head.

But there goes the urge to follow you,
To tell you all these bottled up emotions
I cannot seem to handle but there's this
Voice in my head telling me that
''For weeks of being stuck in sadville, you're better than before.''
I would rather risk losing you than to lose my own sanity.

I'm done playing whatever game you call this,
I'm done catching you when you'd never do the same.
I'm done re-visiting the haunted house that was you.

Thank you for teaching me a valuable lesson,
I should've loved myself and guarded my heart
but sometimes it doesn't happen like that nothing
happens the way we want to.

I will wake up every single day filling the spaces,
You've left while slowly learning to love every
Inch of the soul that you've once wrecked.