I used to think that love was like math before I met you,
I thought it was something
that you built up to.
Like arithmetic and multiplication, I thought the feelings learned from first kisses
and love letters would eventually add up like variables to some some grand equation. I was curious for love.
I looked for lessons of love wherever I could, in songs, books, and movies.
Time passed, and I waited.
In some lonelier moments I became very afraid. I was afraid I was too behind, too
broken and too stupid for love.
But then I met you.
Love came in quiet moments.
It came in the soothing warmth felt while we sat embraced
on a hilltop observing the sunset.
It came in your soft voice as we laid out on  your bedroom floor and you sang along to your favorite record.
It came in the tenderness felt with your skin first pressed up against mine.

Love is not learned or taught. Love is not like math.
Love is more like flight.
Just like it is in birds to fly and plants to grow
it is in every person to love and be loved.
We are all just waiting for the right time and the right light.

Love comes now, years later
in numbing waves, as I drink this warm wine and think of you.
I loved you.
I still love you.

roses are not red and violets are not blue
just unlucky to how I met you
a day of love and despair
a day of annoyance and how love isn't fair
hurtful words written in my mind
because I couldn't bring myself to buy a card I liked
overpriced chocolate and overpriced dates
expecting so much for just one day
disappointment at the end, that isn't me

We started as friends,
Both damaged from our pasts.
You made mistakes that hurt you,
I was convinced that nothing ever lasts.

The adventure began,
From friends to lovers.
It’s like playing in the sand,
But instead we play under covers.

Our storms are fierce,
But we don’t go for shelter.
We stay throughout the weather,
And never let our love welter.

You dive into my waters,
And I wince with every touch,
For how is there love-
Without a little lust?

Our love is like a beach,
And all the boys want to play-
But they’ll never get the chance,
Because I will never go astray.

Till death do us part-
I will never leave your side.
You have my heart forever,
No matter the waves tide.

Roses are red,
violence in bloom;
thoughts, prayers, and guns
for every classroom.

Is this what you wanted,
what you imagined
the day those wedding bells rang?

Where is the man I fell in love with?
I miss the magic.
I miss the days when my heart sang.


-

We said we'd keep our love alive.
Our flame would never die.
Forget the world. Just you and I.

We told the doubters they were wrong.
Every day we'd sing our song of love.
I haven't heard it for so long.

- -

Through tear filled eyes,
beneath the sound of slamming doors.
I still see and hear the echoes
of the day you made me yours.

So tonight I make myself look pretty,
put on that dress you bought me,
try to remember all the
lessons that you've taught me.

I sit and watch the clock
til I hear your key turn in the lock.
Outside I hear the rain.
You smell like her again.

This food is cold! You say.
The candle's burned away.
You've got that anger in your eyes.
I try to fight the urge to cry.

- -

This isn't what I wanted,
what I imagined
the day those wedding bells rang.

You're not the man I fell in love with!
I miss the magic.
I miss the days when my heart sang.

-

Then comes the thunder and the lights go out.
Over the ringing in my ears
I hear our daughter shout my name.

I try to stand but it's too much for me.
Through the pain and tears
I look up to see you leave again.

- -

Jessie doesn't understand.
I try to tell her it's ok.
I take her by the hand.
Let's get your toys so we can play.

Why's Daddy angry Mummy?
Is it something I did wrong?
No. No, it's not you honey.
Come now, let's sing your favourite song.

I should've seen the signs
I should've listened when they told me.
All the times
you used to put me down and scold me.

I tried to walk away
but every time we had the talk.
You always had something to say
or made it out to be my fault.

- -

We said we'd keep our love alive.
Our flame would never die.
**** the world! Just you and I.

We told the doubters they were wrong.
Every day we'd sing our song of love.
I haven't heard it for so long.

- -

Someday I'll find the power
to rebuild my tower.
I'll stand tall again.
Find someone to buy me flowers

and Jessie, you'll be all grown up.
You'll be learning about love.
I hope you find that magic
that I've been dreaming of.

Don't ask your Mummy for advice,
for now my heart is cold as ice.
But baby come back for me
if there's still life left in my eyes.

She doesn't understand.
I smile and say she will someday.
She takes me by the hand.
"Let's get my toys so we can play"

/ /

Love's arrow struck my body.
Not for a simple one person lover...
However, for the people who have crossed my path.
A kiss to my supporters  
Who think of me and send me the best of wishes....
You are my everything... the energy
which charges me
Energies that help my happiness recover.
Strength to become stronger
As I send back such gifts and regift those deserving
who never left my side.
Even though you are not physically or visually here
My psychic mind hears your calls
I respond to you and send warmth your way
energies to you to strengthen your stride.
Now Cupid might set his sets to help me win the heart of
a deserving lady..which I'd love to meet
However, those who stand tall in my army of friends
are the ones he hit me with the arrow of love with
That I shall always be connected with, in deep thought of,
until all of our Eternal ends.