A lot of times came
when you questioned the possibilities
If you can reach your dreams
If you can spread your wings
If you can even fly.

You can.
You CAN.

I’m not the girl you think you see
It is much darker inside of me
A deep and hollow void with no end
The colors I have is for you to blend

Smile is my sign of happiness
My frown signs my loneliness
But my cries plead my sanity
And laughter indicates my insanity

Surface is not always the truth
Sometimes it’s just lies to soothe
To cover the bitterness of your root
Mask of a fake person to booth

With my hands I tried to heal my mind
Over and over I search in order to find
But your hands will surely heal my heart
To wrap with warmth of your art

To find yourself in the middle of the sea of doubt
Is the hardest thing to do lone
So won’t you be my boat
Be the flesh to wrap my bone

When will I learn?
When will it be my turn?
Will I ever realize,
that my turn might never come?

When will I be happy?
Or, will I at all?
Will that moment ever come?
Or will I miss it, because I blink too much?

When will I love myself?
Will I ever get out
of this endless
circle of self hatred?

I was fighting a beast in the dark
When the light scorched the Earth
It revealed who you were
Familiar eyes that matched mine
Alone I was this whole time

I ask myself so many times,
"Why are you here and what do you stand for?"
To have someone so good and amazing in my life
just seems so wrong but how strong, how strong
You must be to stay here and stay as you are

There's no reason for me to admit the obvious
who am I to deserve such a miracle in the form of you
In the real world, it's never supposed to work out like this, am I dreaming it this?
I mean you told me you love me!
How real could this be? Im suffocating in my disbelief... I'm suffocating in what you've called nothing special, when I've seen nothing short of perfect...

I've been sick with this fever of confliction
Wanting to say the three words, the same three words you've whispered in your sleep, and in my dreams, but what holds me back is my fear

The fear that you won't react the same way I do
When I hear them, not that you'd reject them
but soon that you'll realize I could never amount to the man you believe I could be, no
never do I believe that could be me...

I remember every moment we shared
every time you showed me you cared
I tried my best to be the best I could for you
I'd drop all of my life to prove what I mean

I'll somehow overcome my gears
I never want you to go, I never want you to leave
I want you to stay with me
I want to hold your face in my hands and admit even though I'm nothing
I'll fight to be everything

Just so you can hear me say I love you
You'll tell me you love me
and we'll both believe

I look forward for a day of happiness
I look forward for a day of joy
A day I abandon sadness
A day I feel my heart smiling again

I’m just a girl with potential & dreams
A girl with goals that make her fly in heaven
So why can’t I be a girl with all of that & a little bit of joy

Smile, cry
Laugh, weep
I want to smile or laugh
Give my farewells to tears & ache
So, when can I be a girl with all of that & a little bit of joy?

Again, I sit & meditate
Looking forward for the time that I will be happy & full of joy
A time that I abandon tears & ache
& then with a sigh I say
When can I be a girl with all of that & a little bit of joy?