I began to love myself,
Foreign though it be.
But suddenly I've realized,
How much it means for me.

As I began to love myself,
I found it rather hard,
To love myself and realize,
How beautiful my flaws are.

As I went on loving myself,
I grew into it fast.
I started to put myself first,
Instead of always last.

I grew self-love and confidence,
And realized one day,
That as I loved myself,
I started loving others the same way.

As I began to love myself,
Foreign though it be,
I saw myself as beautiful,
And fell in love with me.

What if she gives you her smile again ?
Is she gonna feel for a while without pain ?

What if you put her in your dreams tonight ?
Is she gonna stay until it's bright ?

What if you offer her your heart ?
Are you never gonna be apart ?

What if you try to pacify the butterfly ?
Is she gonna want to fly with you ?

What if you share her the rest of your life ?
Are you gonna accept as you are each other ?

You are still right here and waiting for her,
You were both in, you hope not too much.

What if she is still ignoring you ?
Will you just walk away and say goodbye ?

You are both out, you fear too much,
Just keep breathing for a while.

Because she will be always your half,
In that souvenir of her sparkling smile.

She's the girl that doesn't know how good she really is
She thinks her freckles are to much
You think they're cute
She thinks her hair is to messy
You think it's ****
She thinks her **** is to big
You think it's perfect
She thinks your biggest mistake was falling for her
You think the best thing you ever could have done was to fall for a girl like her
She doesn't believe it when you tell her she is amazing
She doesn't see it
All she sees is the improvements she could make to improve herself
She doesn't see the girl you do
She sees a blue eyed freckled faced awkward kid
She doesn't know how good she really is

You look into her pretty blue eyes
And you lose yourself
You get caught up in her weird personality
And she forgets that she is supposed to be the shy girl
Because around you she is out of control in the best way
Your like her drug
A happy pill so to say
You make her feel alive

Silenced
And reprimanded
For every word
I say.
How many times was it today?
I guess
I won't
Speak
Again.

One you feel you can never climb
The distance is frightening,
but I know you can make it to the other side
If only you try

I’ve seen the strength
that you carry inside
I’ve seen the will, the passion
the fight in your eyes
I’ve witnessed your ambition
I know you can do it one more time

You can do anything
You can be anyone
You can be happy, too
But first you must believe
in the power of you

You’re powerful,
valuable, beautiful and brave
And I know that you know
you can make it through tomorrow
if you can get through today;
I will be there for you
every step of the way

Today I decided gold was my favorite color
I think that says something about the many ways I have finally begun to really accept myself
Because why not decide that I am allowed to own something so fine as my favorite?

gold in the way that I am always trying to be a reflection for the world, of that sun shining down on me
gold in the way that I have finally accepted that my body is not an apology
that my body is not a prize
not to be plated over your pillars
to be seen truly as an earthy miracle
I am golden, not your gold medal

like the element
I require 2000 degrees of your effort to get me boiling, and I take no shame in that
and like the element
I am malleable, but hardly fallible
in my 20 years of life there have been things that have tried to break me, to pound me down until i shattered under their forces.
I will bend and adapt to all spaces
I will keep reflecting that gold light to the eyes that scan with bad intentions

I have dug so deep for this
Made of a fluid fused in the core of the world
Emergence of scalding rock
This is my birth
A fire-y eruption
Searing in the style of my favorite color

The biggest issue
Is you do not see the greatness in you
Or hate what you have turned it into
It's true
You cannot love anybody else
If you don't even love your very own self