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River Scott Jan 2015
I want to
Fill the empty
Space
And tell you
Everything
I feel.

First
There's three words
I've wanted to say
And I can say them
To anyone
If you aren't around
It's not love
More
I miss you
Imissyou
I
Miss
You

Second
No matter what
I'll never feel
The way I felt
With you
No matter who
Comes into my life
You'll always
Be that special feeling

Third
There's a hole
In my essence
In my soul
And no matter
The object
The person
The idea
I've tried to fill it with
Only you
Seem to fit

Fourth
I'll never
Find someone
Who knows me
The way you do
You knew
From a look
That I still liked you
You always knew
What I felt
Just by my face
And no one
Has ever

I can't stand
Not having you
To hold me close

I'm not trying to hide it
Anymore.

-r.y.s
I'm awkward and I miss you. Please come back.
River Scott Jan 2015
I miss you.
I think of you
When I go outside
When I go to school
When I see anything
Everything
Reminds me of you
But I sit here,
And you sit there
And I know it'll be forever
Till I hold you again.

-r.y.s
I love you. I love you. I love you. I miss you.
River Scott Jan 2015
New Year's Eve
2 minutes to midnight
1 minute
30 seconds
20 seconds
10 seconds
9
8
7
6
5
4
3
2
1

It's a new year
But it's a scary year
Every year
It's just been back to the same thing
Back to school
Back to friends
Back to boring

This year,
everything is changing
Back to school
till May
April showers
Bring high school graduations

4th of July fireworks
Fade into freshman year
of college.
College
I've always dreamed of this
But it's so close
And I want a redo

Because it's been
almost a whole year
since you left
and I sit
and think of you
everyday

We were supposed to do this
together.
But you left.

-r.y.s
And yet I still love you.
River Scott Dec 2014
I can't put down
(No matter how hard I try)
The way I feel
(I feel so much)
In words
(Letters arranged in different ways)
There just isn't enough
(No matter how many dictionaries I scour)
Words
(Funny, kind, smart, loving, love, like)
And no matter what I do
(And I do so much)
I can't seem to find
(And I look everywhere)
The right words
(I think love isn't enough)
To describe the feelings
(They are more like galaxies)
That I feel for you
(I love you)

-r.y.s
I don't think love is even close to the right word
River Scott Dec 2014
I chase the thought of you
Not like school girls get chased by boys
But the way you chase liquor
With something
Quick
Fast
And just as bitter

I turn you away
Not because I don't enjoy you
But the way you bring sadness
Along with
Pain
Tears
And ******* madness

-r.y.s
And yet I still love you.
Jason Nel Oct 2014
we fought again, inevitable difference
this one was the hardest

pain

to

endure

d
e
p
r
e
s
s
i
o
n
took my sober soul and cleansed my thoughts with evil

i sit and cry on a beautiful summer's eve
i blame myself for all of this
because i hurt you again, i think

i am so sorry for the
words
laughter
looks
despisement
hatred
and
curses
that you did not deserve

i know i ****** up again
because my mother started asking questions
and i lost one of my only friends

thank you for enduring my bitterness
and hurt i inflicted

this cancer is healed
but the cancer-disfigured-wounds lay behind
and all we can do now is forgive the cancer for existing and forgive each other

I
am
sorry,
Ryan.
This is truly one of my pieces that lay closest to my heart...
Jason Nel Sep 2014
Every gulf I take, intake of knowledge.
Intelligent, motionless, emotional and bare.
I know your soul and I thrive upon our conversations of religion and the loss thereof.
God loves you enough to forgive what you think and its wrongs.

Naked and bare, the milk flows.
White and pure and black and fierce.
You know who you are, I do not, and it pains me to think you ate domesticism.
I will not do the same.
You love me as I love myself and you warmed my heart at 4 o'clock.
I fell for you, I sunk away from feelings of pain as you rode off to our new journey.

Readily I stand there in the pathway to protect.
You have seen each piece of my paternal soul, yet you have not seen my kindred years.
All in time.
Only you hold my mirror.
Emotional intelligence, I value to see each cycle.
The Father, The Son, The Holy Ghost and The Brother.
I will always be there, deserved.
In conflict forgiven once more too.
Misunderstanding stood on death as well.

Deathly stares of blue.
My back turned on my best friend.
You sadden me, I sadden myself because I am the only one to blame.
You ****** the souls of two I only know and keep secret, hidden in the words of conversion.
He loves you, you love him.
You are eclipsed by being in love.
I value the distractions from the thought of losing your light.

Controversially you are crucified for being yourself.
But Jesus died for you first.
You died for me and I for you.
You took a piece of my hand, severed instantly by message.
You disappear for weeks upon years, yet only one sign of movement brings you back...

I love them as simple as death walks hand in hand with suicide,
my loves...
In conversation about
the realities of War
a salient observation
surfaced again and
yet again - that current
creators of film or TV
images favour clean,
so fail the filth test
that for troops and those
who tend them once
bullets & shells have
wrought their harm
scar everywhere with
muck & misery - such
crisp white pinafores
and hair so carefully
coiffeured just never
figured - real warfare
harrows like The Victors
& D-Day scenes which
open Saving Private Ryan
as bloodily as any wound.

(c) C J Heyworth June 2014
the truth is that you are more like a quasar than a lover
you are distant and golden
i ask myself if you will burn me -
disintegrate my being -
if i draw too near you

they say that there are silver linings in clouds
but you are more valuable than any metal
you are more precious than if light had value
and my living was made in ultraviolet

some days you are icy and i wonder if stars can burn in reverse
i'm frozen, but i can't tell if it is hesitation or your wintry eyes
if i never see you again, let it be known
you are more like a quasar than a lover
gee, I wonder who THIS poem's about!~
i've waded through saline rivers
because i burned the bridges for you

and now i stand soaked in your words
drowning in the grief that you gave me

out of sight, out of mind?
more or less.
i still see you in my mind's eye
will i ever get you out?
"He has become the one the songs are about" - David Levithan

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