#relapse poems on Hello Poetry

Maria Etre Dec 2019

ED

This is a mental battle
I wish I can drown in *****

#eating #disorder #tantrum #relapse #thoughts #mental

Carlo C Gomez Oct 2019

Relapse

Waves of broken sleep
numb the day and
put the night in a coma,
like empty tunnels
they mined the hell out of
a century ago.
Turn back the clock
and strand me in this time change,
then full scream ahead
until I'm buried
in the same pettifogging
I was once sustained by.
Waves of plaintive water
support the loneliest creatures
that will soon fly overhead,
like hollow words,
hoping to rain on this parade
and make me cry
for abandoned impulses
closer than they appear.
If I cave to the pressure,
I'll rise from head to toe
in a swelter,
a diver with the bends
riding on high
until the hammered blow
--up and down
this elevator moves,
closing to present ritual
then opening to past stimulus
I'm far too afraid
to open my eyes to,
even if it's only
that one all too familiar
surprise...

#life #relapse #addiction #sleep #insomnia #drugs #alcohol

Taylor S Dec 2019

Fall Apart.

So confusing, constantly shifting
Scattered across my life
Pieces to the puzzle, constantly drifting
Started from the middle, can't find the edges
Life's little things always in chaos
Big picture got me gazing over ledges
Thinking death ain't so scary
Not suicidal
Just a little confused, thoughts always contrary

Tell me I'm worthless
Don't deserve no one
Tell me I'm perfect
Ain't deserved by no one
Voices in my head
Their never done
Always one last thing to be said
I don't get any peace
And I don't get no love

My head in her lap
Fingers through my hair
So close to a relapse
Had she not been there
But she don't remember a thing
To much wine and revelry
And I can't say a thing
For fear of her leaving
For fear, fear of her staying

What do I do
If she says no
What do I do
If she says yes
How can I live my life
At the end of this rope
Pull the knot, Kick the chair
But I ain' wanna go there
To much commitment
Look I'm scared
Had to many people in my life walk away
To many times where I forgot what to say
To many ******* times
Couldn't read their minds

#relapse #confused #suicidal #puzzle #drifting

eli Dec 2019

relapse

relapsing is part of healing
just because you relapse
doesn't mean you lost all of your progress

#relapse #heal #healing

aeviternal memorabilia Dec 2019

a different kind of oz

i haven't felt that familiar sting
since the world left me behind.
for a while i tried to convince myself
that i was happy.

for a while i entertained the tongue
of a cowardly lion and forced myself
to forget what love felt like and let lust in.
it was when he begged me to lose my cowardice that i realized he was only in it for the golden fur he wore to give himself that sense of pride of conquering my kingdom.

for a while i stuffed those nervous poppies
into my pillow to seep into my dreams at night.
i couldn't banish them, though;
you can't escape what you're a part of.

for a while i gave oil to the tin man, who in turn
left me alone in the middle of nowhere,
like a scarecrow,
or like a child waiting for his father to return from the grocery store.
the tin man promised me care and attention,
but i guess only oz has that kind of privilege.

i haven't felt that familiar sting
since the world left me behind.
for a while, i tried to convince myself
that i was happy;
but i instead found my way
back to the black and white pains of kansas.
there is no place like home.

#relapse

Carter Dec 2019

Addicted

I’m addicted to you
and the way you made me feel.
I spent the nights after it ended
going through withdrawals
that were almost as bad as when i forgot my medication for three days straight.
Every time i saw you made me
want to relapse
just to feel your skin against mine.
Now i’m no longer addicted to you.
You’re just a bad memory
and a former fix.

#addicted #relapse #lover #breakup #rejection #healing #recovering

Autmn T Nov 2019

For My Brother

And that which coats my lungs, holds tight my throat. Begging me to go limp and surrender. But tomorrow will be sun. Tomorrow will be day. And I will no longer have to battle this fear alone.

#addiction #drugs #recovery #relapse

Proctor Ehrling Nov 2019

unused line #3

A relapse is beginning
With the walls thinning

Wanted to write a poem about alcoholism, but this is the only line I ended up liking in the whole thing, cause the poem itself is just too on-the-nose.

#relapse #addiction #seizure #spastic

Neal Emanuelson Nov 2019

Dysthymia (Relapse)

When does the love start
and the pain end
and does it know when One's made it?
Does One know if it's broken,
the parts missing,
or is One just pretending to fake it?

One's just half a thought away
From being rotten and decayed
And it still has the gall to say
That it's okay...

The only words speak
of the truths when
the hope becomes a weakness.
When the soul's rot
and the heart's dead,
but One still goes on-
can One make it?

One has half the nerve to stay
Lost in hatred and dismay
Accosted, toxic, and afraid
To say it's okay

And now One's cold, it's a mess
To find a way out of this flesh
But it's too old and it will digress
To find some way out of this...

One has gone astray, losing itself each day
No one saves, no one dares
And when it's all gone away, One hopes it has died that way
No one comes and no one cares

One's just half a thought away
From being rotten and decayed
And it still has the gall to say
That it's okay

One has half the nerve to stay
Lost in hatred and dismay
Accosted, toxic, and afraid
To say it's okay

One's broken and tired on display
Hoping for the endless day
Where it can truthfully come to say
That I'm...

#relapse