Been piecing things together lately,
And frankly,
I'm puzzled.

Basically I keep my feelings a secret
I'm not the type to say what I feel
With you it's no different
I want to tell you, believe me I've tried
but, there's  part of me that just can't take any chances.
So, I doubt that you'll ever know,
which may be fine with you, but it hurts me,
I won't tell you though.
May be it's the way you say my name
or the way you smile
or may be just everything,
getting to know you seems worth my while.
Sometimes I think, what's there to hide?
Then,slowly my heart takes brains side.
I guess I'll never say it.
I would never reveal my feelings to you,
I'll just love you from distance,
as I'm not sure what else there is to do.

Cursed by my imagination,
teaming with echoes of situations
I do not feel well,
pressed beneath this spell

Polishing my social skills,
with one more drink, and two more pills
I do not feel good,
I thought by now I would

Bound by my own disposition,
the endless hunt to find fruition
I'm insatiable,
even if my cup is full

It's like one thousand paper cuts, soaked in vinegar
It's like a battles within myself, that leaves me insecure

Why do you listen to everything I say?
Why do you talk to me through out the day?
Why do you put up with all of my ****?
Why do you stand me when I drive you to the end of your wit?
Why do you point out when I'm wrong?
Why do you think I'm pretty as a song?
Why do you smell like daisies?
Why do you drive me so crazy?
Why do you make so much of time for me?
Why do you not want to change a thing in me?
Why do you be so nice and sweet?
Why do you lose when we compete?
Why do you fight with me when I'm angry?
Why do you spend time with me when you can be free?
Why do you leave and I feel empty?
Why do you come around and then I'm all over happy?
Why can't you tell me, from me what you seek?
Answer me soon, because you've started to make me weak ♥♥♥