Numb, Intoxicated, Lost

in that risky playful night

Words you said were from the heart
no, it was from your mind

Unexpected, Mind-blurred, Lost
in that VIP sofa seat
with all our heart
brushed your lips against mine

Single night, Single heart, Single mind
his words fell into my lost heart
I still remember how it felt
should have first doubted it



I’m the heart,
he’s the mind


I lost,
but he never won

you're more than anyone in the realm of everyone
but,
I am never able to comprehend
"who you are to me" entirely.

If I could, I would capture you in my eyes and turn blind out of the fear of losing you
but then there is this thought
that opens my eyes.

If I could, I would cuddle you all day and all night till eternity
but then there is this thought
and I refrain from touching you..

When you smile
I simply want to freeze the time
but then there is this thought
that takes away the time from my clutches.

I want to spend countless sleepless nights
by just wondering about you
but then there is this one thought
that envelopes me with slumber of despair.

I want to write a lot,
express tons of feelings
but then there is this thought
and I feel helpless.

  "Kyon *** main tera raahi,
                     Jab tu hai kisi aur ki manzil"

here i am
with you.
here i am
faking a smile.

i wish that just once
you would look at me
for who i am,
not the one with a mask.

here you are
with me.
here you are
joking.

you look at me
with your enchanting eyes.
you smile at me
with your crooked grin.

all we do is joke.
all we do is fake.
i wish that one-day
we can go beyond that.

maybe you don't love me.
maybe we're nothing more
than friends,
than acquaintances.

you're with her,
not me.

here i am,
alone...

I could’ve woken you
In the morning
And kissed you warm
On your lips
I could’ve hold
Your hands in mine
While strolling
In the morning light
I could’ve kissed you
Under the mistletoe
Crooning the carols right
But I didn’t do any
Just because
I was in love with you
But you weren’t
In love with me

One of the hardest things,

you can do,

is to let go.

Let it go.

Let it be wild.

Maybe,

someday

it’ll come back.