Nobody,
just a
shadow of
a somebody.
And lacking a heart,
only the memories
of the somebody remain.
Residing in neither the light
nor the darkness, only in nothing.
A shell of the somebody’s final stand.

I help everyone,
I'm always there when they need a friend,
When they need to talk to me,
Just me
Because I'm the one who listens.

I know all of their stories,
I know what everyone's going through,
I know what makes them sad,
And I know what makes them...
Smile.

I'm there when they're crying,
I'm there when they're happy,
I'm there when they don't even need me,
And I'm still there
Even when they're gone.

I know my friends
Better than I know myself,
And I can read their thoughts,
Their emotions,
I know exactly what they need.

But, ah, alas,
Nobody knows a thing about me.
They say they do,
But
Do they?

They only know what I've told them,
They only know what I pretend,
They've only met
The happy side
Of me.

When I'm crying
I run to nobody.
I stay and deal with it myself
They don't need to know
That their protector is breaking.

They don't know that I have heaps
And weights pushing down,
Things that are threatening to **** me,
To drain every ounce
Of my happiness.

I fight on for them,
I smile so they don't have to know
What I go through.
I smile so that way
They do too.

When I'm crying, yes,
I type happy thoughts.
Behind an Internet screen,
Nobody knows,
Yes... nobody knows.

Everything's gone
Nobody's here
I need help but I am so alone
The screams are so loud inside of my head
And nothing seems to stop them, unlike before
It escalates so quickly
I don't even have time to think
Everyone's absent
Nothing is here

a poem to no one
is a true story
that hasn't happened
yet

I can't see anything
All I see is black
I can't feel anything
All I feel is numb
I can't hear anything
It's like someone pulled a plug
And my heart feels like it will explode
But all those around me shrug
I don't know what to do
Its like someone wants me dead
I don't understand
Why are they so cruel
Maybe if I just run
Maybe then they will not think me a fool

I am just a nobody
A freak around a town
They don't care about me
But that's alright
I will survive
How many places will I go in order to stay alive
I am in need a place to stay
But no one really cares

I am a runaway girl
A child in need
But they just turn their head
I don't know what to do
I have to survive
I feel so surrounded
So I take a deep breath and dive

Who knows maybe I'll survive
I try to believe that everything will be okay
Though as things get harder
I forget that I'm stronger
And as the night goes and fades away
I remember that it's just the dawn before the day

I have a hope and a fear and a dream
A heart that will ache and squeeze and scream
A soul that will twist with agony
Though through it all I know that everything will be kept alive
Because I know I will survive

A night that fades from dusk to dawn
It's just the moon that rises before the sun
How many times I want to howl
Though everyone believes it is because I'm foul

They don't know the pain that I feel
The hurt that I harbor inside
They don't understand that this is my life
That I am stuck and cannot hide

Though I am strong
I have to believe that not everything is as it seems
Because as soon as things look up I know
The devil will throw in a hook
I'll get trapped and hooked and snared
A thousand tries but fails in one way
A million ways a billion ways
A nonstop push and pull
An eternity of pain

I shall survive because I keep my faith alive
Those that doubt will be blind and stumble about
I cannot dream but hope for ways out

I know it's only a twilight of days to come
A new way to make the pain go numb
So I shall sing and shout and dance around
To hope and dream that the new feeling is found

Nobody was there for me.
Nobody was there to protect me.
Nobody was there to help me.

But what am I expecting?
I am just a nobody to them.