It doesn't matter
How loud
Or how long
Or how hard
I scream
My voice will end up
Vanishing into thin air
As if nothing happened

Have you ever felt alone in a crowd of people?
Well I'm here and I can't quite make out the sounds
Faces rush around me, I can't catch a glimpse
Everything's moving so fast, and here I am so still
I blink my eyes, and everything changes
Oh where did this feeling of longing grow from?
It's like I'm moving in slow motion
I try to move one foot in front of the other
I look from side to side
Is anyone there? Can anyone hear me?*
Trying to catch a glimpse of the one who might save me
But all I see is blank glances, dead eyes
There's no one there, there never was
Just me and my shallow, empty heart

every morning i wake up
is another day filled with regret

the demons in my head won't go away
endless discouragement is all i get

no wonder i want to disappear
with nothing more to fret

as i will be gone from this earth
nothing else but death

i'm a listening ear to anyone
and a nobody to everyone

you may say i'm somebody to you
but we both know it isnt true

showing false compassion
for a nobody like me from you

•

Hold me closer to you,
     Until this throe is over,
          Wipe away this despairing tears,
              And build smile into my face,
          Take away all of this weights I'm lifting,
       And let me rest in your embrace,
   Whisper comfort into my ears,
With the warmth of your breath I feel.


                                You're all that I needed.


                                                    But­­ oh well, I won't expect too much,
                                          I know for a fact that it won't happen,

'Cause I'm just a NOBODY.





                             © Earl Jane
                               ♥ E.J.C.S.

who are they to tell us
what should we do and what not
those selfish *******,
already living their lives
and they try to take away ours
by telling us what to do?

no they can't
I won't allow it
nobody can dictate my happiness

you don't know,
how bad
i want to approach you
but i can't

your smile?
it lights up my world
and i,
thank you for that

your voice?
it's music to my ears
i want to tell you that,
but i can't

i want to come up to you
and tell you how perfect you are
but of course,
i can not.

because to you,
i'm just a nobody
and  that
will never change.