Hell, this day just begun and I'm already done.
I knew when I heard that familiar screech of the alarm,
The cold side of a warm blanket on an empty bed,
And the imprint where "she" had laid only hours before;
I knew then, that this day was already done.
I knew I still had to get up, "attack the day"
Or whatever the hell they say.
Brush my teeth and pretend I'm not the derelict from the night before
Pretend I hadn't done it again
Pretend to be the man I sold her to see.
The truth is my life feels like a snow globe
All the potential spinning round me
Still unable to grasp any of it, still stuck inside this cold, small world
Forced to pretend that what I'm looking for is inside this small world.
I'm lost, there's something so,
So dreadfully, inexplicably, abstact that I'm missing and I'm cavernous without it
Put the toothbrush down and just head back to bed
This day just begun and it's already done.