My head hurts, my sight blurs
Quietly i loose consciousness.
My heartbeat breaks, i am choking
Shamefully i loose myself in thoughtfulness.

I sit and watch my hands transform
my thoughts to written words--

How proudly I deny honest truths
a little space in my deluded forehead
And how desperately I cling to life
scared I might just now draw my last breath.

Such is the complete state of man;
When sickness brings him to the brink of death
he remembers the unkind odds that lent him life
But when he is strong and able
he remembers himself immortal.

Questions left unanswered
That which we ask ourselves, why?
Tired from unwanted existence
In this life, you and I

Uncertainty of tomorrow
In the waking of everyday
Strangling ropes to our throats
Dragging cobblestones on railways

Midnight shifting thoughts
That which I ask myself, should I?
Crumpled bed sheets whispering soft
A life we must survive

I know we aren't just a breath apart
Nor steps away from each other, love.
Skin to skin we barely meet
This distance is killing both you and me.
Craving for each other
Gathering cyber hugs and kisses to one another
Staring onto the screen
Waiting for each other again to meet

I know it's scaring you
That one day or soon. i'll be leaving you
That I'll be making actions that will impale you through
Leaving you marks and scars
And splash you with the colors of black and blue

Sweetheart, I want you to know that I am all yours
Your heart is m serenity and mine will always be your home
Every time we bid each other "good night"
The first and last thing I think of before I go to sleep
Is the thought of you sleeping beside me, holding me tight.

There maybe times we feel disenchantment coming our way
But look, we're still here
Stronger and happier than what we expected
Smiling all these storms away
Ignoring these thoughts that'll ruin our way.

Never think of me running away from you
For I know, my whole heart, body, and soul belongs to you
You'll always be my way home; bliss and sanctuary.

Every single day, you're always in my mind, thinking of you as always
Wanting your fingers to entertwine with mine again

Darling I am all yours
Every step you make
Every word you take
I'll be there, one step away
Each moment when I'm with you
Every hitched breathwhen you kiss me like you do.

I know this distance is killing you and me.
But don't you worry, darling
One day I'll be waking up next to you
Tangled sheets onto our resting bodies close to each other
There will be no cyber hugs and kiss anymore
But skin to skin we'll always meet.

I am all yours, love.
All yours.

For someone who once called me their everything,
You sure didn’t seem to give a ****,
When I called you, thighs bleeding and eyes leaking
But all I got was a voicemail
At least I got to hear your voice one more time
Truth be told, I don’t want you
No, I don’t want you
Not anymore
Not like I used to
But I want you to want me
I want you to want me, but know you can’t have me anymore
Not anymore
Because you let go of the one girl that ever actually gave a **** about you,
Yes, I want you to want me like I once wanted you
So you can feel the pain that comes with karma
And one sided love.

you used to leave one kiss on my head.
now I could be pronounced dead &
you'd act like you care.
about the memories,
left.
like broken glass on the kitchen floor.


c.f.