Just sit in the shower
Let the warm water run
Hide and cower
Life’s no fun

You can’t make others laugh
You can’t help others heal
You can’t succeed
But you do fail at love

Sit in the shower
No failing anyone there
Your life doesn’t matter
This heart is past repair

Why should I keep trying
Why should I leave this place
Why should I be alive
But you should stay here

When I talk no one laughs
It all goes silent
Leaving me feeling absent

The voices say they hate me
The voices say I am an impostor
The voices tell me I should leave

Where would I go
Everywhere I look i’m so alone
Coldness down to the bone

Maybe the voices are right
Maybe love and friends are out of sight
Maybe everythings not alright

Tears running down my cheeks
I’ll never be the one who speaks

Keep crying in the shower
Keep being the failure that you are

They all do it better
That’s why I sit in the shower

You talk too much
You want his touch

I can’t be strong
He needs a pillar
And i’m crumbling

Touch is what I crave
Next to him hand in hand
Love setting sail on a wave

But i’m not good enough

That’s why your in the shower

With these shower thoughts

As we sat in the car and the sun declined, the world turned to a peach hue and dimmed. The pouring rain from not only an hour before still felt as if it lingered in the air, sticking to my skin. A car joined us in the parking lot and started staring to the East, we both turned our gaze to align with theirs and saw a perfect rainbow accompanied by a faded second. And as we sat there and reflected on the topic of the human perseption of light, I found a moment to ask, "Can I kiss you so we can remember this moment forever?"
They replied, "of course".

The laugh catches me, low and high
Lips that aren't meant to be mine, carrying me away
Eyes tunneling through me, while I try to see past the surface  
Pupils dilating, heart picking up speed
A laugh brings me a smile
Her scent sends me to a place I didn't know existed
I feel a warmth cross my cheeks as I pull her closer
Her hand brushes the side of my face
She knows I blush when she does this to me
One more touch of the lips on my forehead
I melt completely in her arms
Just an inch taller, I lean into her
She laughs again, this time softly
Finding the center of my back
A light back and forth eases me
I no longer fear what I'm feeling
I've dreamt of this longer than I was aware

You loved her in the womb,
Until you saw her face,
Then you decided she was an ugly baby,
You loved the story until you saw the person,
Then you decided you don’t believe them,
Because of their Race.
You wanted them teaching your children,
Until you saw their sexuality,
Their appearance their beliefs their eyes.
You loved them until you saw who they love
And how they choose who and how to love,
Then you decided they weren’t worth hearing.

You decided that they Are crazy.
You decided that they belong in a box,
Because we know “how to deal with people like them
How to fix people like them”.
But what you don’t do is listen.
You are so quick to change your opinion,
When you judge with your eyes.

You are so quick to tell call them worthless,
And to say, “YOU’RE FIRED”,
For believing something you didn’t.
You are so quick to ostracize them, to hate them,
To say that something is wrong with them.
Because you judge with your Eyes,
And forgot your heart.

Copyright Ashley Marlow ©

People always tell me,
that people love me.
People always tell me,
that people care for me.
People always tell me,
that they will love me....
..... no. matter. what.....

Lies
Lies
Lies

I cant tell you,
I cant tell you me.
I cant tell you,
who I am.

Lies
Lies
Lies

If you knew me, you would hate me.

So stop telling me you will love me no. matter. what.

Cause you wont....