dog leashed, tied onto a pitch-black pole
woven to the pillar, like you're woven to my soul
every thought about you pours acid in my heart
and i cough out the rest like blood
one day i'm scavenging for water, a paranoid dart
the next i'm drowning in a hot-pink flood
i saw you in the window of that small local store
after becoming a regular, the door wouldn't open anymore
but you looked so pretty when you were so far away
and for some reason i come back every day
but it was so good at first
you made me finally believe
that someone out there could love someone like me
and i told you what i did wrong
and you said you didn't care
but i must've mistaken that love was in the air
i try to talk to you
i try to understand
but every word i say to you
you repeat back, just bland
and you blame it on me?
you say i'm the confusing one
so i chase and chase, give and give
you never let me take some
it's my mistake i put love first
my mistake i wasn't rational
my mistake that when you said you liked me
i somehow didn't think it was casual
i'm a dog waiting at your door
saliva puddle on your wooden floor
i wait for you to come back
like i'm tied to a pole, pitch-black
my hunger has been satiated now
i open my eyes for the sixth time
this has gone much longer than i can allow
you're making me run out of rhyme
i guess it was my mistake that even then, even now
i somehow thought you would be mine.
the world is so big so big so big. i need to feel a meaning and productiveness in my life. (S.P.)