Love.
They say you will find it,
Hopefully, you will feel it,
Learn to need it
and finally feel alive.
Well, that's a lie.
Love will leave you broken.
Grabbing at your chest
trying to rip your heart open.
All you feel is pain.
Fire running through your veins.
Yet, you still want more.
Feeling scared.
Overwhelmed with all these feelings.
Nothing is right.
Put up that wall.
Start to fight.
Breaking and crumbling,
the walls coming down.
Starting to panic
trying to cry out;
can't make a sound
Feeling alone and unwanted.
Understanding what went wrong.
Nothing is your fault...or is it all?
You start to fall.
It's all your fault.
Have to make it right.
You try and try
but they still pass you by.
Head is aching,
body shaking.
Going to explode.
Might overflow.
Numb.
Feelings start to disappear.
You're fine.
You're okay.
Why did you care anyway?
Get up.
Head held high.
You don't need love,
not worth your time.
So much pain.
So much blood.
Too many tears,
all wasted on love.
You are enough.
All you need is me.
No more blood
pain and tears.
I searched for light in everyone else
Lost who I was, dimmed myself.
I cried, I bent, I paid the cost
I am enough- I always was.
For the ones who broke but never stopped rebuilding.
Healing isn't always pretty, but it's always worth it.