I wrap myself in this blanket
It keeps me warm yet it's cold
It makes me see yet I'm blind
It makes me smile yet it is why I am broken

I hide in this blanket
It's a shield, a disguise, a mask
It's my unknown guardian
No one can see me I'm hidden

Why are people so scared of this endless blanket
With this blanket I can create anything
This blanket is what is hidden behind our light
This blanket is beautiful but fear itself

My blanket is the unknown we know all so well

I take a storm and make myself swallow a hurricane
It gets stuck on the way down and rips me apart
No one ever told me not to take on too much
MORE MORE MORE
Take in more
I can handle it
Swallow it down
There is no need for breaths of air in between
I can take it
My back is cracking evenly down my spine
Eyes all over as I start to bend
Straighten up
I will take it
They pile on me like bricks and sandbags, thrown off your shoulder and onto mine
As you tell me you don't want to burden me
You untie the weights on your ankles and strap them to my wrists
MORE MORE MORE
My arms are open and bleeding
Pins hold my lips to the corners of my eyes
I am being crushed under the weight
I have to take it
Hooks connected to strings nestle into the exposed skin on my hands, holding me up as my knees snap and bend
Give me your weight
I'll take it down with me as it drives me into the hard soil
I can handle it
I can take it
I will take it
I have to take it

We kissed so much
I would come home hiding my swollen lips.
And you sat with me for my first psychiatrist appointment,
and told me everything was going to be okay.
So i engulfed myself in you,
and ended up drowning.
A simple chemical imbalance was too ****** up for you.
I would get home and the only things swollen were my eyes.
Why would you tell me you would teach me how to swim,
and then hold my head under the water?

You are so good at this game
And I am in shame
I would rather not blame
you for all this
Kiss me goodbye
Oh wait, you're too shy
...
Well all right.
I guess I'll go now

By Arcassin Burnham




sitting back in my studies,
i guess im home,
old girl,
tried to see me when i wasnt home,
talking slang to others in the parking lot,
they get suspicious when they see the up and coming cops,
federals took my cousins,
dieing in the fear of needing a sense of guilt,
glad there were no guns bursting,
no clarity in the media when he was killed,
born into an unfair life,
like hitting the club full of gays,
or prostitution all over the streets,
or maybe your uncle shooting drugs in an abandoned place,

guess they were right,
when they said the best things in life were free..........

I crave for an understanding
Of what I'm about do

I wish i could tell you what lonliness is
but i've been inside for days
I haven't left my house
I have no one to see
and nowhere to go,
I am at a loss for words.
So think of it as
methodical waves,
lapping at the earths edge,
except the ocean,
is brimming with life,
and i am not.