Remind me again
of the where and when of it,
it’s slipping through my finger memories
and my heart slows

Tell me of the Technicolor past,
even with the scratched film stock
I need to see it again
to affirm the mummers truth
and rest easy

I know you tire of the words,
of me,
sorry, sorry me

But the third reel is fixed
and the epilogue’s flickered approach
rattles near

Before the credits roll
narrate me a last flashback
to suspend our disbelief in

I miss you.
I miss the days of laughter.
I miss the years of history and inside jokes.
I miss the feeling of being known and understood.

I'm not sure where things went wrong.
I don't know the point where you shut me out or where you decided against having me in your life.
I'm not sure if it's temporary, or permenant.

However, I know that you'll always be remembered fondly in my heart.

You were my calm point in a sea of chaos.

However, water is constantly churning, moving, and changing. You'll never see the same wave twice. And while you may love a spot on a beach, you can't wait for the same molecules to return every time. That's just how it works.

The phone is ringing, my dear
Please wake up and answer my call
I'm sorry we said these things
We should never have acted that way
Please tell me
Why do we always say Goodbye
When we don't want to lose our love
We've come so far and worked so hard
Is it really the end
I guess I'll ease the pain, Goodbye My Dear
There's a knock on my door
Calling for a life that I'm not living
I got your letter in the mail and messages on my phone
It's all a lie, that I'm not believing
As soon as your back you'll go missing
Before too late you'll be gone again, just like summer rain
This time I want to say Goodbye
There ain't nothing left of our love
We/ve come so far and worked so hard
I guess this really is the end
Nothing you say can change my mid,
I'll ease the pain and say Goodbye, My Dear.

sometimes
the pain becomes too much
and the emotions
become one
jumbled up
mess.

you become too numb to cry
you sit
and stare at a wall
and just wish
that the tears would come
so you can just let the pain out
just something
to let you know
that you’re still...
alive.

but they don’t

you continue to feel
as if
you are nothing
as if no one cares.

your anxiety gets worse
you scream
you cry
you want so desperately
to die..
but you put on a smile
because
you’re the happy one
right?

wrong
you seem happy
no one cares enough to ask
“are you okay”
you continue
over and over
to make sure
that your so called
friends
are okay
that you sacrifice your own health
your own happiness
and you begin to stop feeling at all

you want out
but you can’t get out
this is an endless cycle
that you’ll be stuck in forever
or at least until you decide to do something

you are standing in the bathroom
bottle in hand
ready to take the life
that has been taken advantage of
by others who don’t care

but you can’t bring yourself to do it
you want out so desperately
but you just
can’t
do it

you think about your mom
your dad
your baby sister
the people that would care
the people that’s worlds would stop
if you did this
you think of your dog
that would whine and whine
if their owner
didn’t come home from school

you think of these little things
you put the bottle down
you walk out the bathroom
and run for the people you love
you hug them harder than you’ve ever hugged anyone in your life
you ask for help
and you live another day..

Every time that we're together, my feelings for you gets deeper and deeper. You just didn't know cause you're blinded by the happiness it makes. I decided not to tell you because I know that we're both enjoying it. If we need to go on separate ways and I couldn't tell you this, then thank you for everything.

Footsteps becoming heavy,
Approaching the Gallows Wood;
Like the sacrificial cross,
Of where Jesus once stood..

Memories fading,
Like an echoes end;
Unable to face,
All the things you've been..

Destiny or fate,
Still a destination of which you're late..
Evolution of a creation,
No more than a mistake..

Decades of holding back,
A soul now drowned from choked down tears;

Standing before the Gallows Wood,
A faint smile,
Now replaces your fears...

After all this time I still wait and wonder if there will be any type of gestures. Something that would show me everything I’ve ever needed to hear.
After so much time I try and realize this will never happen. Something in me broke the minute we stopped being us.
After crying for what seems to be an eternity I can only think of you. Something tells me I will be like this for a long time.
After it all ended. Something broke in me.
After it all ended. Something broke in me.