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Cloudisse Oct 31
I earned this status in a very vulnerable and upsetting moment in my life.

Of course, it was exploited and took advantage of. Me.

I served as an inside joke, a clown for others to get a kick out of, free use and laughter for others.

All whilst patronising me! I was oblivious. This, accompanied by other hardships, continued for a ruthless and renting four years, until it ceased.

The joke had gotten old, and they let me be.

More or less, this goes to show what true reality is like. Vulnerability is what monsters prey after! Like a shark huffing the scent of blood underwater, they prowl.
kel Oct 30
on bare feet
treading light footprints
following the beat
of the rush
from ocean waves
to adopt seashells
as she paves
a path sideways
towards the sea
dipping her feet
letting things be
letting wind blow
her hair messy
she gives out
and finally smiles
as if there
is no tomorrow
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Coffee Oct 29
It’s been enough years now,
Enough years for me to let you go from my mind.
Yet each time a sad song plays,
Your memory returns, and tears fill my eyes.

Was it really that difficult for you to love me?
Am I just a fool to still hold onto the memories?
Everyone says you didn’t deserve me anyway,
But all I feel is I was the one who didn’t deserve to be loved.

The brown eyes I fell in love with,
They’ll never change.
I searched for that warmth in others' eyes,
But left them cold and estranged.

I tried to find what you once gave,
But only left them torn,
Passing on the heartbreak you left me,
In eyes just like yours, forlorn.
J Oct 29
I feel like a ghost
I’m neither here nor there
Always within that in between

Filling up some unused space
Creaking floorboards beneath my feet

I’m that chill in the air

Barely there

A soft whisper
Samuel Oct 26
So afraid he, (of) duplicity,
he locked himself away in his tower.

When he'll leave, no one can say,
until the appointed hour.

Through falling leaves, and fire's hearth,
fresh dew and Summer's harvest.

He hides and waits behind locked gates,
in his tower, filled with avarice.

For you see, this tower is not empty,
nor, hollow, echoing or cold.

It's filled to bursting, with such great treasure, worth even more than gold.

No gold, nor silver, no precious stone, gathers dust in these thick walls,

Something far more hallowed, abstract and rare,
adorns and decks the halls.

Trust.

A simple thing, yet complex in itself.
And those who earn it, and give it freely
Are seen to have great wealth.

Hard to find, hard to give,
Difficult to buy and without, live.

Easy to break, easy to lose,
Easy to foster with those you choose

Bonds worth more than any bond,
Without it, life's joys abscond.

But.

What worth has treasure,
or hoarded wealth, if not spent and shared or given?

If you harbor it, keep it, and clutch it tight, everything for which you've striven?

Just dust and dust, ashes and tears,
Loneliness and paranoia collected for years

As valuable as it is, the tighter you hold,
Trust becomes worthless, a Fool's Gold.

For Trust left to stagnate, rot and fester,
Becomes useless, and to the soul, a fetter

But see! A crack, a flaw overlooked,
In this stalwart bastion.

A window, a portal, through which shines a light,
Igniting dormant passion.

Across the moat of sorrow,
And over the walls of grief,
Through halls filled, yet hollow,
Shines a tempting belief.

The light of hope, the sparkle of joy,
The shimmer of dreams and fate

And on the winds of change, a sound,
A whisper to contemplate.

"Trust me," calls a distant voice,
A tempting change to his current choice

"Some of yours for some of mine,
We'll make the trade, and it'll be fine."

He stands paused before the door, thinking, "No, I've heard it all before.

You say 'some of that, for some of this'
Then something will surely go amiss.

You'll break my trust,
leave my heart stinging,
and go off happy, merry, singing.

And I'll be left, betrayed, alone,
with one more hurt etched in my bone."

"Alone," he says, looking around,
At his desolate sanctuary, devoid of sound.

"Is it worse," he mumbles with chagrin,
"Than this bleak hell I placed myself?

But surely I must remain vigilant, and guard my bountiful wealth."

"Only," he murmurs, pacing now,
"To look at it, all I see is stuff.

Bountiful? Valuable? Yes and yes,
but certainly more than enough.

And what is its value, truly, to me
Besides something to trade, to barter?"

And he suddenly filled with certainty,
He'd die alone, a false martyr.

He hauled at the doors,
rusted from disuse,
Man and door made a terrible groan

"No! Not yet, my future's not set,
I have yet time to fill my home!

With faith and joy, love and more,
I'll fill it with those things by the score."

So saying, and with one final heave,
He tore open his castle door.

Doors flung wide,
on the threshold he stood,
A thin smile and challenging glower,

"Come one, come all, and barter with me,
For now is the appointed hour!"


And as he filled his spacious abode,
I believe I'll finish this rambling ode,

I rhymed too much, there's barely a pace,
And the metaphors are all over the place.

Too, I'll say, halfway through,
it became more of a flex.

A challenge to myself, and to you,
To make the verbiage ever more complex.

But at the core of the matter,
on a serious note,
is a thought that should be engaged

The matter of trust and broken hearts,
Hope, that the pieces be salvaged.

For just as easily,
he could have deafened his ears,
And shuttered his heart some more,

But I, as Writer, naive as I am,
Had him ignore the pain from before.

Is this a reflection of me? Or you?
Perhaps both. No, probably me.

But everyone shares a similar pain,
Even if others can't see.

So to bring this to a close,
with less metre than prose,
My message, stated more simply,

Trust and hope,
those precious things,
spring eternally!
A shot in the dark at poetry, with no prior knowledge of formatting or pace.

I wrote this spontaneously, in under 12 hours, because the first four lines popped into my head while watering the garden, and I couldn't put it down until it felt like it was done.
GODNYX Oct 23
Maybe we can—
but I can’t.
I can’t continue on this path,
I can't destroy myself for you.

I cherished my life,
gave everything I had,
but I know,
it’s not enough.
I understand,
but I can’t do this anymore.

I’ve had enough.
I want to live,
live my own life,
not in your shadows.
I can’t be who you want me to be.

I want to escape.
To breathe,
to be free from all of you.
I can't even breathe here

"Calm down; you’re overthinking it."
No, I’m not.
It’s not me
It’s you.
You’re the ones playing with my mind,
driving me mad.

I’m scared.
Terrified of living like this,
of living with you.
I beg you,
please,
let me go.

Let me go.
Let me go,
and let me live my life
GODNYX Oct 23
I Am a Sinner
I am a sinner,
My mind is a mess.
Where I find comfort,
I sleep the deepest rest.

I should say,
I am a sinner
For I sleep
While my mother is dying.

I am a sinner,
For I eat,
While my mother is starving
Zee Oct 20
I brought my favourite drink.
One you once told me not to.

You were just a stranger then.
Not even one of my closest friends.

It's funny how the fizz.
Reminded me of you.

Then again you told me,
Lots of things.
That became untrue.

You shook me up.
So good.

So much so.
I wish I could forget.
The way you taste.

Instead I'll ***** the cap back on.
To stop the fizzing and frothing.

Bottle you up.
With my sinking emotions.
So that you drowned the way.
I did.

When you first kissed my lips.
Skyler H Oct 18
I'm sick of hearing.
The thought of hearing one more story
That's not my own makes me wanna cry uncontrollably
I don't wanna listen.
To let how you feel tell me what to do
I'm sick of listening.

I'm sick of seeing.
Everyone else having it all put together
It makes my stomach turn to know that won't be me, ever
I don't wanna watch.
You live out what I want so eagerly
I'm sick of watching.

I want to feel.
To feel someone in my arms
And to feel the fire that might burn me to the ground
If it did, I would gladly let it
I'm sick of waiting.

I'm sick of losing.
To watch everyone leave or their shadows hunt me
To feel the warmth frozen by the cold in a tight embrace
I don't wanna win.
For as wining inevitably disappoints me

I want to be sick.
Sick in love and desperate
To be dizzy and dumb and stupid and young
Not to wear a cloak that hides me, lurking to swallow me whole
I want to be dizzy with desire.

Just for a blink I wanna see
the love they all see
And give in completely.
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