life keeps challenging me
with the same situation,
either stay or let go.
time passes by,
and needed to rush,
most of the rush decisions fail.
but somethings worth it.
wake up early with tears falling,
thanks G. for giving me challenges.
Life give you hard options
but choose one to get another one next,
that's how life thought me,
maybe you need one for now, but look what is next in line,
you can see the other one that you really wanted.
Life never gets easy at first.

Flickering on and off like a kerosene lit lamp,
I waver in the dark,
awaiting the verdict I've already given myself.

Sinner. Saint.
The pendulum swings back and forth,
toying with my frayed emotions,
Ripping away the little remaining sanity I have.

No matter the outcome,
I am destined to run from both sides of the coin
As I have found my solace nowhere and, yet, everywhere

I had you somewhere outside
We were so near to each other like never before
I talked to you on not giving up
Then you said to me not to let go
The skyscrapers  around us were breaking and falling
I was scared
Then I went to your back and you grabbed my hands
You let me hugged you
We were too proximate
Together we faced the end of time
As soon as we saw the end light, we went back to the beginning
It was just a bright light
But then I woke up, it was just only a dream
A dream that tore my heart
A dream that slap to my reality
Why?
Because the truth is, we have broken up
The dream is the opposite of our decision
Cause in reality, we didn't fight for our love
We never faced the falling world of us And that dream is a reminder of our shortcomings
And a reminder of what should have been done to save us.

Tears come falling down
Decisions are already made,
but are any of them right?
Oh morality is what i seek
But the dagger of self blame yields further beyond any other weapon
It cuts you deep
We have choices,
but rarely speak the language of our heart's true desires

What if?

What if my choice was different,
what if your choice was different?
It doesn't matter what cards we are given,
it matters what you choose to do with them
Living life with folds around the eyes,
yet again it was always a matter of choice

Aint it sad?

We don't recognize
the sound of our soul
Its usually almost non existent
But we recognize everything else,
that's not ME so easily
My tears come falling down,
I wished I could choose differently
And now the pain of never knowing,
will always be with me
Until I live, this sorrow will weep..