I’m Sitting Waiting Thinking Drinking Patience Decaying Breaking Shaking Unshackling Unlatching A step Two more Bright Open sky Cloudy Smells like Lilac, lavender metallic Feast Flowers The scent Intoxicating Tormenting Corroding Blackening Darker Hiding now Colors Fading I’m losing Hiding in Crates Dying, Empty Emotionless Instinct... Animalistic How basic How human like, Cowering in the sight of Ones reflection How sad, How detestable Grotesque I’ve become what I fear “Myself.”
Madness like a red coat Around her throat Drowning in the ruins Of her own misery And Own sorrow O’ dear child, You should have stayed In that garden of yours Among the myriads of Growing daises And Gifting each of us a violet For centuries to keep But how long can Leaves shade you From the Many faces of fate— The cruelest ones always name after us, Victims.
Dwell in the many layers of rosemary and pansies; Look how is ironic history just became With its indelible smell of Fennel and Columbius ;
Drawn towards the many Spun webs of the Golden singing spiders— She floats amongst the Water lilies From here on.
Breathing in breathing out feeling my ribs and its elasticity, while taking baby steps like I never walked before. For the first time, I hope this walk is no means to an end. Walking on endless fluffy clouds, the three colored leaves, the fluffy gold retriever won't even lure my eyes With you. Like a full baby, my smile says everything.
Every breath was just a means to surviving Every step was just a means to a cave All the three-star meals was an excuse to watch tv Looking down from the apex of ignorance I thought the clock was mine, I dreamed the gold will be mine, hallucinating our journey would reach across the horizon to slowly smile at you.
Puffy eyes and wet pillows say it all I am digging my own grave to get to the clouds while another sun shines on my back. Again, closing my eyes just for another walk on that fluffy night cloud.
I heard dreams come true. I wish that was true. Love you.