You should know that
if you were to call on me,
I wouldn't flinch
Darling, I would be there
in an instant but
I hide this from you

I need to make my bones right now
and cities are much more beautiful
from far away, anyway

The day I lost him,
drop by drop,
My heart aching,
my brain conflicted
and body helpless.
I watched as he looked at me.
A smile escaped his lips,
and he left me a dying message
"My love, live for yourself, don't try to satisfy this greedy world."
With that his eyes closed.
Each day I replay those moments,
wishing I could save him,
only if I could rewind time.

I can't seem to understand
I don't comprehend
How do 'those people'
Get ahead in the end?
We're taught to be considerate
We're taught to be understanding
But they still succeed
Without so much of an inkling.
Everyone likes a badass
Because they defy the rules
But how can the so-called 'nice' people
Feel attraction for those fools?
It seems unfair
It doesn't feel right
But at the end of the day
I guess ***** is might.

I want the best for you
And I can't stand your pain
But they all want to fix you
And line up to solve your mystery
I'll hold the bags
And try not to let my repugnance show

A creature not worth the drama
Only good for a whiskey blind mistake
To shake off and forget about
Turn their minds to better things
Like you.

Don't be so quick to give your heart to anyone.
                                     *You're giving them a loaded gun.

Words were all but words
What you never said;
What you said to me
Curses under your breathe.

I opened up my heart
You tore it apart;
Said I lived in fantasies
Bound to turn to dust.

I would fall to the deep end
You wouldn't even help;
Screamed till I was spent
And you just laughed aloud.

I knew i was in love i knew you were too
But i kept it a secret and so did you
I thought that I could trust someone
that was always there
That held my hand when life wasnt fair

But it was all a lie
I couldn't figure out why
But I just can't say bye
Because I love you and I know you love me

Haven't felt it in a while
That tearing inside and out
The feeling of an impaled heart
The breath coming to a halt
As your name and message
Flashed across the screen

i like you
i think
i like you enough to lie to myself
i like you enough not to leave you
but you love me
you loved me before you knew me
i don't know how but you did
i am not in love with you
but i'm willing to wait and see if i can love you

i like you**
but not enough to risk getting hurt
i like you enough to realize that i still like myself alone
than with you together
but i hate myself for not liking you how i should
because you love me
and i am crumbling