I* will die your daughter,
I will eventually be gone,
you might laugh, or cry tears,
you will wake up at dawn,
and find that your worst fears,
have inevitably come to life.

I will die your daughter.
Convinced I'm destined to decease,
as your daughter, not my own lead,
you'll be glad to finally have your peace,
The tear-stained letter? That's all you need.

I will die your daughter,
I won't run from my problems,
I won't fight them back either,
I won't rise to stardom,
This is my last breather.

I will die your daughter,
You may love me as your family,
but you don't love me as a person.
Knowing that hurts much more frantically,
as you don't even notice when I worsen.

I will die your daughter,
I have your blood bestowed upon,
But you've never considered me as one,
I don't want you to care when I'm gone,
Just go out and forget about me, have fun.

At the end of the day, it's not beneath you,
and trust me, it hurts me too.
But please remember me anyway,
even though you're the reason I couldn't stay.

The comfort of sadness
falls short
only to the comfort found
in a mother's lap.

My Kitty claims my heart and soul,
Her love a fire that makes me whole.

She curls beside me, soft and bright,
A gentle flame that warms the night.

Her eyes like moons that glow and gleam,
Reflecting all my secret dream.

She purrs, she teases, sweet and near,
Her tender touch dissolves all fear.

With every hug and gentle sigh,
She lifts my heart where love can fly.

No hand but hers can touch my soul,
No eyes but hers can see me whole.

She kneads my chest with tiny paws,
A playful queen without a cause.

She nips, she squeezes, holding tight,
Her playful grip feels just so right.

With tiny bites she comes so near,
A playful hunger so bright and clear.

Her tiny paws, a gentle claw,
Remind me love has playful law.

She mews, she chirps, a flirtful sound,
Her playful sound is all around.

She owns my night, she owns my day,
No gaze can steal her love away.

Forever hers, my heart is bound,
In Kitty’s love, my joy is found.

With you, love lights my every day,
My heart alight in endless ways.

So stay, my Kitty, by my side,
For you alone are my heart’s true guide.

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got to save up to earn a slower death
a more palatable   and rewarding one
medically attended
               cribbed comfy
'won't you cheer me on to the afterlife ?'
.
got to pave my way to a dosing oblivion
whilst my bowls void into clear bags        
with measure marks down the sides
and my muscles lack and sag            
and distress is stretched
                      for all those who may dare pay me a visit
'won't you cheer me on to the afterlife ?'
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gotta have that great white death    
gotta have clean    clean paperwork
by the book   shuffle off .. no ..
drip off.. good to the last drop
                                        rattle breath and plop
'here's to the afterlife'
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