I have lived 30 years

Living 30 years of experiences

All of them the same me

February 14th 2025,
The yearly anniversary of he who failed to fall,
To the crushing hand of prosecution.
The day, a symbol of love,
Congratulations Mr. Douglass,
That's what we got.
Happy birthday to a spirit of liberty,
And cheers to equal freedoms.

Connected to your past, connected to your friends, connected to the earth
You've moved along abstaining from hope
Downcast were your eyes
Lidded and without sight, the world turning dark
Sudden is the leap leaving behind that encroaching shadow
In what stage, in what form will you land?
Beginning to reclaim what's been lost
From the ground you lay staring the bar in its eye
From the ground you rise to lift it with you
Great effort it will take
Something which now you are able to make
Creature of joy hidden within
Stare upon your baubles and gems
Weave of light, craft your world
Take stock of the newly granted freedoms
Life stands before you arms spread wide
New breath swirls around
You now step into an era of gold

the room is dark but my face is bright,
candle wicks glow with a soft gleaming light,
my mouth forms an o, a moment of wonder,
and darkness comes again, until next year yonder.
yet when next year comes, ill feel the heat stronger,
one more candle is lit, and it makes me ponder,
something ridiculous, like have i grown rounder?
and how long until all snow is downpour?
how long do we have until we begin mourning,
until no one greets the sun ‘good morning”,  
and people turn cruel, though it brings them no prize,
while the rich just get richer, wealth blinding their eyes,
as all those in need begin growing in number,
and all those with greed become dumber and dumber,
people grow confused when they reap what they sow,
unaware we’ve stooped to an all-time low,
as the extinction of our empathy looms near,
and all we know is confusion and fear,
as the world slowly burns down, the sight familiar,
I’ll blow out my candles, humanity disfigured.

Dear ancient true love, Happy New Year Happy birthay.

How do you do blessings.
My maginary best friend indeed many lifetimes it seems we have loved each other-rddpc.
What a wonderful world
That old famed sweet sad song.
Hearing it for what it was meaning with mine inaction,
indeed it crushed my heart on Mothers Day
i still feel the awful pain of my inaction and how I missed my mark
walking away tore me into bits.
I hated misunderstanding you.
I hated being disasociated in my struggle to support myself with honors, with gangs closing each job door I oppened.

Here to wish you belated
many Marry Christmasse
and a Happy New Years belated cards
Happy belated birthdays every year of your life
I always think of you,
my ancient true love

I got a Christmas Card and are making a copy of it found on online
A chosen christmas card as in ancient times,
wishing you many Happy Birthdays too.
A rather well-wishing snowy holiday card, celebrating every blessed month and day of January 30th also.

Though yes i survived, my tragic life filled with love despite surviving and running from serial killers since childhood.
Habitual drug users who bailed themselves out of ******* dues and implicated me and my children's life
in USA-
an unprovoqued hate crime that lasted a life time.
Because where i was born annoyed them criminals, my social status.
relentless enemies stalked me for years and my children.

Ever firecer ever demonizing me trashing me to my own grown kids in places I shined best, brightest and holy good to my children.

These enemies repaid my good with undeserved malignant evil jealousies;
destroying my cherished motherhood  character and integrity to my own grown children.

from these greedy crazed scumb
I took billion blows, by means of dead silence. Had i with my kids gone public and to authorities no divisdion would exist tarred by lies..
Despite their greed and malice I feel a sacred alignment in the motherhood
department in that, I saved myself and my baby children each time it was needed.

mainly I was hated for my PHD survival skills along with my check book lacking funds I could never ballance and they could not steal.

I remain filled with love
The love you showed me woke me up with deepest understanding
of all you are.
Here with deep infinite gratitude for your pain your patience your sacrifices, your loss.

I remain indebted to you and your beloved Mom, your parents for all eternity
I did accepted her benefit, the treasure of her friensmdship she crowned me wit,h and for all eternity in every lifetime, infinite gratitude, infinite love to you and your  parents.

I shall forever grieve such loss.
I lived with stabbing regret to not have contacted your precious loving Mom again.
For all your wounds and blows my silences gave you unintentionally
for all you offered me, for missing the mark
for your offer for a happier easier life, filled with treasures in heaven and on Earth
Your genuine family made of heaven and star diamond dust, for companionship my great treasures, along with  
the joy of eternal true love i found in you for me,
I love you, NOT in a time sensitive matter but forever and chronologically without happily ever afters.

My heart sobs for my poor beloved children and because of my silence missed up on the happiness joy your beloved parents, your siblings and best friends, meant for us four.

The enemy couldn't **** me pregnant on the various ways  attempted nor could steal my children so the enemy
Waited to trash demonize me in holy places to my few nlind deaf mute -in laws and my grown kids were deeply
affected prisioners by their marriage partners.
This horror true story I hid for too long and  culprit waiting to end me, divide me, and lie about my heroic surviving mothetly gold skills.

The enemy stalked me tracked my car and slowly went for my in-laws to trash me to the eleven winds to everyone who was fund of me, who loved me treasured me cherished me, admired me along with my children.

To my undeserved enemies in Mexuco in Greece and in USA, my children the object of their evil obsession remains.

You beloved myvtrue love were my all my heaven sent, the forces of good and understanding. You I could not chase i lost too.



Such a precious family i found in all that you are, all of you that were mine all for the taking. I thank you I cherish you I adore your mind in any state of distress I honor you.

I never found such blessings in this
lifetime ever again.
I have mourned the loss of my grandkids relationship my only treasures, assimilated by intruder malignant thives

Those blue colar criminals still hunt me down in the medicaid medicare field eadly enemies wont give up their, greed malice and habitual drug use.
and t
Their hate crimes isolated me from my grandkids my sons in laws took their nedsrioys bate profit, i am worrh more to them dead then alive
~~~~~~~~~~~
"i always think of you as someone very dear and precious."

So beleted Marry Christmases and Belated Happy birthdays dearest darling.
How i love you.
Infinite gratitude my love,
All the days of my life
I am worshipping you.
likewise, my beloved children.
~~~~~~~~~~
By: Karijinbba

Dear ancient true love, Happy New Year Happy birthay.

How do you do blessings.
My maginary best friend indeed many lifetimes it seems we have loved each other-rddpc.
What a wonderful world
That old famed sweet sad song.
Hearing it for what it was meaning with mine inaction,
indeed it crushed my heart on Mothers Day
i still feel the awful pain of my inaction and how I missed my mark
walking away tore me into bits.
I hated misunderstanding you.
I hated being disasociated in my struggle to support myself with honors, with gangs closing each job door I oppened.

Here to wish you belated
many Marry Christmasse
and a Happy New Years belated cards
Happy belated birthdays every year of your life
I always think of you,
my ancient true love

I got a Christmas Card and are making a copy of it found on online
A chosen christmas card as in ancient times,
wishing you many Happy Birthdays too.
A rather well-wishing snowy holiday card, celebrating every blessed month and day of January 30th also.

Though yes i survived, my tragic life filled with love despite surviving and running from serial killers since childhood.
Habitual drug users who bailed themselves out of ******* dues and implicated me and my children's life
in USA-
an unprovoqued hate crime that lasted a life time.
Because of where i was born annoyed them criminals, my social status.
relentless enemies stalked me for years and my children.

Ever and ever demonizing me trashing me to my own grown kids in places I shined best and brightest.

These enemies repaid my good for evil destroying the precious character integrity of my own grown children.

from these greedy crazed scumb
I took billion blows, my dead silence.

Despite their greed and malice I feel sacred in the motherhood
department.

mainly I was hated for my PHD survival skills along with my check book lacking funds I could never ballance and they could not steal.

I remain filled with love
The love you showed me woke me up with deepest understanding
of all you are.
Here with deep infinite gratitude for your pain your patience your sacrifices, your loss.

I remain indebted to you and your beloved Mom, your parents for all eternity
I did accept her benefit the treasure friensmdship she crowned me with
for all eternity for every lifetime.

I shall forever grieve such loss.
I lived with stabbing regret to not have contacted your precious and mine Mom again.

For all your wounds and blows my silences gave you unintentionally
for all you offered me, for missing the mark
for your offer for a happier easier life, filled with treasures in heaven and on Earth
a great family made of true love for true love, for companionship my great treasures, along with  
the joy of eternal true love i gound in you for me,
I love you , not in a time sensitive matter but forever.

My heart sobs for my poor beloved children and because of my silence missed up on the happiness joy your beloved parents, your siblings and best friends, meant for us four.

The enemy couldn't **** me pregnant on the various ways attempted nor steal my children so the enemy I did not linch waited.
This horror true story i hid fed culprit waiting to end me, divide me, and lie about my heroic surviving skills.

The enemy stalked me tracked my car and slowly went for my in-laws to trash me to the 11 winds to everyone who was fund of me, who loved me treasured me cherished me, admired me- my children

my chikdren the object of their evil obsession never ended..

You beloved were all my heaven sent the forces of good and understanding.

Such a precious family i found in all that you are, all of you that were mine all for the taking. I thank you I cherish you I adore your mind in any state of distress I honor you.

I never found such blessings in this lifetime ever again.
I have lost my children relationship  my only treasures, assimilated by my deadly enemies.
and their hate crimes isolated me from  my grandkids too.

"i always think of you as someone very dear and precious."

So beleted Marry Christmases and Belated Happy birthdays dearest darling. How i love you.
Infinite love,
All the days if my life
I am worshipping you.
likewise, I worship my belived children..
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By Karijinbba
home less without you 50 years.