I don't go to church
My soul need no search
You tell me I'll go to hell
Well, I think that's swell
I don't want an eternity of harps.

A magical being,
Walked this earth,
The simple touch of thee hem of his dress,
Could heal all sickness,
Cure all blindness,
And bless all sinners.
*******.
How is it possible,
The first two humans who ever walked this earth,
Were Adam and Eve,
When we have cave paintings,
From much, much earlier,
Than Adam and Eve.
How come Christianity and Catholicism traits,
Are found from many different religions?
Plus, not to mention,
The fact that Christianity is one of the most recent religions.
If we are all siblings under God,
Then that would be a lot of ******.
We would all be ****** up.
Oh wait,
We are.
We have depression,
Suicide,
Anxiety,
Starving countries,
Deadly storms,
Tsunamis,
Hurricanes,
Tornadoes,
Cancer,
Disease,
We need to start asking ourselves,
Is there really a “god”?
And if so,
How good can he be?

The blue was taken
out of the birds in the park
and put into my heart
with a cold as deep as
my room in the winter
when we didn't pay the bill.

The blue forces memories  
of the behavioral hospital

The Spiderman bedding
over my father's house

My mother's face covered
in poorly wiped tears
from hours of me lying
unconscious in the hospital

as she prayed silently,
and I said in the darkness
of my own head
"God doesn't do anything for atheists."

I love the way you
say my Christian name
without the faith

Forever sleep, never keep
Die and let be dead.
Rest, my friend, in Earth deep,
You've finally come to know peace.

You are no demon, angel, or beast
You are, but instead,
A beautiful thing, to say the least,
Finally come to know peace.

****** on the rice fields of Vietnam,
Where was God when his children wanted to sleep,
The burnt villages should make you question;
Is your love really too young to weep ?

(Grandfather’s murmurs – here to stay,
The woman I love wouldn’t have it another way.)

Life from the shores of incredible pain,
Your mother gave birth to shifting sands ,
A woman’s love should make you question;
Did god kiss her bridal hands ?

(Father’s advice – never fades,
Our love will outlast his coming decades.)

Early mornings at red-sacred dawn,
I still remember your un-spectacled eyes,
A mother’s prayers should make you question;
Why does God believe your innocent lies ?

(Mother’s beauty- touches all,
She wants you to sing this coming fall.)

****** on the rice fields of Vietnam,
Where was man when his brothers wanted to sleep
A squandered earth should make you question;
Is her love really too young to keep ?

(Grandmother’s pearls – here to shine,
I am glad I made you forever mine.)

When I found Jesus
He was walking on
A king-size water bed
If you don't believe it
You're gonna go to hell
Go to hell he said
When I quit breathing
I'm gonna fly away
Far from all this pain
Replace the seasons
With the bittersweet
Dance of the mundane
I'll live forever
With a saintly smile
Stuck upon my face
And pray I never
Will fall again
Fall again from grace

I'm done being shamed for being me
For not believing in god
For being a lesbian
For listening to the music that isn't popular
For being a female with short hair
For being curious
For being a feminist
For being myself
I'm not going to change myself to fit into your standards
I'm not going to change the way I think and learn
Because you think I ask too many questions and need to keep my nose outta things
I'm not going to change the way I believe
Because I cannot change that you will not make me
I'm not going to change the way I look because of you
Because I really enjoy the way I look
I'm not going to pretend to like what is popular and in trend
Because I don't want to have the exact same interests as everyone around me
I am not going to change myself because I'm happy with myself
Just because you are not confident in yourself, doesn't mean I can't be
I'm done trying to change to make everyone else happy
I'm not going to shamed for being me
I'm unique and no one change that