Truth told but never believed.
Underestimated because of lies told.
Unheard words lies still winning.
Couldn't trust anyone.
Now you see the lies.
Now its happening to you.
You see the truth now.
Better seen.
Than never seen at all.

Falling leafs and bare tree.
Long nights and tormented dreams.
Frost bitten tears.
The days come and go.
But the pain still hurts.
Death has no sound.
No scent or face.
Saying nothing.
Taking everything.
Death left me Autumn tears

His smile brought my walls down.
Craving for his touch.
Needing his kiss.
Lost in his eyes.
Feeling things words can't explain.
Desire burns like a wild fire.
Carried out on a tidel wave of emotions.
Higher than the moon.
His devine love stole my heart
His Love made me blind.

Brick by brick he pulled my wall down.
Mending a broken heart.
Breathing life into a lifeless body.
Sitting on the dark side with me when no one else would.
On borrowed time now it has run out.
As the night fades you left.
No good byes.
No kiss before you left.
Leaving only a rose behind.
You left me alone.
Now I am left waiting on you to come back.

Don't waste time its to short and to precious.
Don't think just do it.
Don't ignore your heart just listen to it.
Don't think about tomorrow.

Have fun everyday.
Laugh until it hurts and tears fall.
Tell someone you love them.
Do that thing you keep putting off.

Don't get caught in stupid fights.
Don't grow up to fast.
Stay young for as long as you can.
Don't grow old.

Not easy to find forgotten dreams.
Remembering happy days.
Missing the conversations we had.
Wishing time could be turn back.
Feeling more lost and alone.
Worlds apart.
Gazing up at the stars.
Knowing that you are behind them.
Looking down on me from heaven.

Hidden secrets.
Masks wore hiding two faces.
Acts put on the show has started.
The stories and lies get bigger.
Skeletons in the closet.
Why hide the past?.
Everyone has one good or bad.

For 11 mintues there was silence.
No twitter rants no name calling tweets.
No fake nothing.
For 11 mintues the world was safe from trump tweets.
Wishing I could see the look on his face.
The world was free for 11 mintues.
#11mintues

I tried.
You gave up.
I staid.
You left.
You texted.
My battery died.
The best thing that ever happen.

Read me a fairy tale.
Fake news.
Show me a magazine
Fake news.

Us against them.
Race wars reborn.
Rich vs poor.
The same tiered lying stories
The news says we would love to hear from you.
#youdon'tcarewhatwethink.
#turnthefakenewsoff.

While the magazines tells me I am not a princess and I no model either. Page upon page of your not good enough.
#youtocanlooklikeme
#youhavetobuythis.

I never knew the brain dead would rise killing free thought. So I burnt the magazines and turned off the news.

Lost smiles and forgotten dreams.
Newly springs roses dancing in the gentle breeze.Remembering past summer days.

A freshly lit barbecue burnt back sausages. Laughing so hard tears rolled down our cheeks.

Thinking our time would last forever, Life ends and your gone.
Now all that's between us is the moon and stars.

Remembering our last summer.

I see faces fading into the past.
I hear the grandfather clocking ticking.
I have tasted bitter sweet fruit.
I smell you sweet lingering scent.
I feel a love only my heart understands.

On a journey with no destination.
Healing wounds.
Mending shattered hearts piece by piece.
Much needed answers found.
Killing doubt.
Burying the past.
Boxing up haunted memories.
For giving mistakes made.
Living again.
Chasing rainbows.
Touching stars in the night sky.
Catching dreams.
Not broken but whole again.

Colder than the December snow a soul carved from stone. A heart grown cold sold out and betrayed everyone I ever loved.I have become a slave to the Judas in my mind.

I am the fear that holds you back.
I am the thought who makes your body shake.
I am the one takes your sleep away.
I am who makes you think of every failure ever made.
I am the feelings that Takes your smile away.
I am the one who keeps you isolated.
I am the one who takes freedom joy happiness and hope away.

Anxiety is my name

Angry words exchanged like gun fire. stories made lies told the truth twisted. Tears falling like a rain that never ends.

Watching as life falls apart can't go back to the way things use to be. Death calls a life is taking to early. Now nothing can ever be the same.

Laying awake in the darkness of night. Thinking about the prices paid. A life lost and a heart shatter forever more.

Couldn't say good bye.
Never had the chance to say it.

Thankful for the mistakes because it taught many lessons.

Thankful for the darkness because I see the light.

Thankful for the silence because I heard my heart speak.

Thankful for the star who helped me open my eyes

Thankful for my ego because it helped Me choose life.

Now you are in heaven and we are worlds apart.

Do you miss me like I miss you?.
Do you wish we could meet one last time?.
Do you miss moments we shared?.
Do you miss the places we went?.
Do miss the summer days we had by the beach?.

It's been two years since you since you past away but the pain still hurts.

I was asked what would I say to my younger self and the answer was easy.

Enjoy the time you have now because it won't last forever. Laugh at all the little things that is funny. Play everyday and enjoy the warm sun on your face.

Gaze up at the starry night sky and make pictures from the stars. Sleeping under the sliver moon light knowing that you will be safe.

Don't grow up to fast stay as young as you can. Never be scared to say what's on your mind. Listen to your heart that will true to you.

Just don't grow up to soon.

You broke my heart.
I dug my key into the side of your car.
You made me cry.
I slashed all four tyres.
Your ruin my life.
I burned your car down to it's shell.
Revenge is a dish served hotter than the fires of hell.

Love is a flame that burns any heart it touches.
Love can be beautiful but it comes with the sharpest thorn's you'll find.
Love is a pain not even a painkiller will fix.
Love is a killer that keeps killing day and night

Don't need to hide it.
No need to faking it.
You don't love me like I love you.
No feeling no heart no soul.
The light we shared has turn to darkness.
Colder than ice we are drifting apart.
Choosing to let you go and save my dying heart.
I don't miss the fun we had.
Can't live in a lie.
I am free and i learned love can burn any heart.

I dream of the way your hands touch my curves.
I dream of the way you press your lips again mine.
I dream of the way we have our secret little place no one knows about.
I dream of the way you tease me.
I dream of the ways I could make you happy.
I dream of the way our bodies are entwined.
I dream of the way I can feel your heart beating hard under my hand.
I dream of the way I wish that I could stay in this dream with you.

Its 1 am
The wind has gone to sleep watching a candles flame burning away.
Remembering how the sun always shined and we lived for fun
Laughing so hard tears rolled down our cheeks.
Sitting up late into the night time seem to stand still.
Its 2 am
It feels so empty with out you  
The pillows is wet ,from the tears I have cried.
A heart  filled with pain
Can't think anymore.
Your fading into to a dream I am not living anymore
Its getting harder to breath.
Its 3 am
How can I sleep while the bed is burning.
Trying to forget you but can't.
The walls are closing in on me
My mind is spinning.
Your my oxygen I can't breath.
Its 4 am
Falling a sleeping
The candles are burn out
In a dream that feels so real
Feels your touch
It feels so real
Wakes up to find you are no were near me.
Maybe one day you will fade away and my dreams, will fall apart.

Look at the families who are destroyed.
Look at the mother and father who a son or a daughter.
Look at the friend who lost a friend.
Look at the wife who lost her husband.
Look at the husband who lost his wife.
Look at the children who lost a mum or dad.
Guns are not protecting us.
Guns are killings us.

People tell me I am to nice.
People tell me I am to loud.
People tell me I am to quite.
People tell me I love to much.
People tell me I trust to much.

I dance to my own tune.
I follow the beat of my drum.
I write the poems I want.
I let my light shine brighter than the stars
My heart talks I listen and write the words.
I am what I am

The flames of hate have taken over everything. Poisoned minds taught to hate anything that allows people to live free. Innocent life's cut shorts families shattered.

Not safe any were.
Can't love who you want to love.
No solutions to the problems.
Nothing is getting better things seem to be getting worse.

Can't trust the news channels.
Governments don't know what to do anymore. They want us to believe it is all sun shine lolly pops and rainbows.

Let's stand shoulder to shoulder no matter where you are in the world. Let's send message that can't be ignored.

Hope over fear
Good over evil
Light over darkness.
We stand together
Hate can never win

One kiss is never enough and We both know it.
One touch sets my soul on fire.
Your tongue brushing againist mine weakens my knees.
Giving into a lustful excitment I can't fight anymore.
Showing me a side of love I never knew existed until now.
Touching me in mysterious only my heart can understand.
Needing you more.
Wanting you more.
We both know one night is never enough.

How many more innocent people will die?.

How many more life's will be cut short way too soon?.

How many more Lifes will be taken for no reason?.

How many more families will be destroyed?.

Why can't we just live with out fear?

When does enough become enough?.

He couldn't see just how much she loved him.
He couldn't see the beautiful thing they had was dying day by day.
He couldn't see the bottle of jack was killing him slowly.
He couldn't see his wife's heart breaking piece by piece.
He couldn't see the tears she cried.

He didn't want to get help.
He didn't want to let the bottle of jack go.
He didn't hear her leave with the unborn baby in her belly.
He didn't see what he had until it was gone.

Going through the back the streets of my mind lost in old memories. Laying a painful past to rest Forgetting every cruel word ever said. Crying no more tears moving on not looking back.

Time to live grow and heal replacing sadness with happiness. Killing doubt before it kills me Allowing old wounds, to heal mending my heart piece by piece.

Stepping out of the darkness and into the light . Waking up ready to open my eyes hope is reborn. Listening to my heart knowing there will always be a better tomorrow.

If i could turn it off I would.
If this was an act it would be over by now.
If you were to live in my body you wouldn't last an hour.
If I could stop my mind spinning for one day I would.
If I could scream at my anxiety disorder to leave me alone, I would have done that long ago.