Losing your mother is like.

A rain that never ends.
A road that ends before you do.
A pain that keeps hurting.
A good bye your never ready to say

Should have known better.
Should have staid away.
Should not have got to close.
Should not have plaid with the fire that's burning me.
Turn the light on someone wake me up.
He's stealing my dreams and taken my heart.

While the world watches insults being exchanged like kids in the playground. Promise made that will never be kept by either side. People moaning about elections being rigged, everyone knows that knows.

Politicians senators and presidents don't really care about the people. They tell lies keeping the truth hidden from everyone. Saying anything just to get every vote  they can no matter what it takes.

You only matter when your vote is needed by people who don't care about you. They care not for us but for the money and power. It doesn't matter who you vote for things will never get better no matter who wins.

I don't have a big beautiful house.
I don't have a beautiful car.
I don't have a lot of money.
I don't have big adventures.

I can give you a love that never changes or grows old.
I can be there day or night.
I can be more than just a friend.
I can give without wanting something in return.

If you care more about the things that I dont have than the things, that I can give you. Then maybe it is best to let go and forget.

He stormed into my life changing everything.
A desire burns deep with in my heart.
Tiered of fighting feelings that can't be beaten.
There is nothing that i wouldn't do for him.
He is the sun in my blue sky.
He is the moon in my night sky.
He is the sun light in my hair.
He is the smile on my lips.
I love him more than he will ever know.
His beauty is every where I go.
I would do anything just to see him smile.
I would travel the world and bring him back beautiful things.
He stole my heart.
He stole my love.
Now these eyes seen nothing but him.
My mind body and soul are his.

Shatter hearts that can't be mended.
Drowning in a sea of pain heart ache and sorrow.
No life boat.
No life jacket.
No help comes.
Sinking faster and faster.
Loneliness creeps in.
Crying tears that never get seen.
Screaming loud but no one hears.
Longing for someone hold me tight.
Hoping for a better tomorrow that never comes.
I have nothing apart from hope to hold on to.

Every time a problem comes you want to run. It doesn't matter what anyone else wants. To selfish to stop and think about other people.

Starting things that can't be finished that just you. I should have never gave you an other chance. Yet here we are you wanting to run again.

You can't alway run when things don't go the way you want it to. Not everything is about you.

But it always ends this way everything is about you.

kind words bring no comfort.
The pain keeps hurting.
Dragged into an other fight.

Using the darkness of night to cry where no one can see me.

Stay or go.
Run and never look back.
Listen to the voice of reason or ignore it.
feeling alone.
Somethings never change.

  Living with an never ending pain

Fight or don't fight.
Keep getting up or stay down.
Wait for him or don't wait.
Look back or look forward.

A wise man once said you can't change what has happen you let it go and move on.

Not always easy to do.
Some pain never stops hurting.
Full with regrets and heart ache.
Can't run because there's no were to go.
Can't scream because no one would hear me anyway.

trapped in a real life nightmare that I can't escape from .

lets just turn our phones off and forget about everything for one night.

Lets shut out the world and pretend that we are the last two people alive.

No need for tv.
No need for movies we have seen so many times.
No need to be with friends.
No need to get drunk.

I have you and you have me nothing else is needed we have it all right here.

I am yours mind body and soul tonight I don't want to share you with anyone.

Our eyes met we exchange smiles you give me that flirty look. Our bodies entwine we move to the music heart to heart until the music ends.

We slip away when no one notices laughing as if we were teenagers again.Standing under the sliver moon light of the night time stands still.

Caught up in a lust filled moment one kiss changed everything. Secret meeting at midnight away from prying eyes and gossiping people.

Our moan's and groans cut through the clear starry night sky. Every rule broken each line crossed gone beyond the point of no return.

Forbidden fruit always tastes sweet one bite is never going to be enough. I maybe playing with fire but what is life with out a little risk.

I have been trying for hours to think of what to say or how to make this right. Remembering everything That you said and did. Searching really hard to find That one good thing you did, but I can't find it.

All I found was promise made be never kept lies told to anyone,who would listen. You sat back and watched everyone fight. Tears fell hearts ended up shattered I was left, to pick up the broken piece of peoples lifes.

I can't forgive you for the drugs you took the money that you stole. The threat's you made the knife you held against my throat. All I ask is that you forget That I was ever born and, let me live a happy life.

Let's shut out the world and turn our phones off. Tonight let me feel your tongue in my mouth.

Let me feel your soft lips kiss my mouth and neck.Let me feel your hands touch every part of my body.

Let our body's come together and make the sweetest song. Let your name fall from my lips over and over.

let me lay my naked body upon your bed. touch me kiss me feel me inside and outside.

Tonight I want to be the only toy you play with.

Every time I see you its hard not to smile. my heart races reaching speeds no car could ever match.

You asked me what I was I thinking about it. Some questions are best lift not answered.

You make me feel like a love sick teenager that, would do anything to get you to notice me.

In my dreams I have kissed you a thousand times. Feeling your soft hands touching every part of my body.

Every I time see you I fall in love with you all over again.

Now I lay me down to sleep with thoughts of you in my head, to keep me from loneliness. In the deepest part of my dreams I will hear your voice echo, across the mountains, and dancing upon the waves of the sea.

If I could stay in this moment with you I would do it if I could, stop time I would do it. If I could fly away with you I would, do it never looking back. My heart and soul belongs only to you.

These eyes of mine see no one other than you I would give you, the sun the moon and the stars. Body and souls belongs to only you. Now I lay me down to sleep in sadness but in happiness.

Dear personal demons
For so many years you took everything from me my joy and my happiness. Everytime I was breaking free you dragged me, back to that dark place. Trying to break me reliving old memories. Using every feeling and emotion on me. Taking the fear and making grow and grow until I cried in terror. Well no more it all ends you won't ever hold me back. Use feelings or fear on me I have one last fight and its all for you. Lets go to the deepest darkest places. Dance on the flames of fire exchange a hit for hit you took my life. Now I want it back when I leave you behind know this I am not scared. A wise man once told me just have a little faith.

Looking back at all the pointless fights and sleepless nights, worrying about everything. It took so much more from me than you can understand.

Worrying all the time laying a wake with a million thoughts in my head. Crying in the darkness of night were no one can see.

I can't do this anymore I am not strong enough to keep fighting over and over. That's why it's all over no more fighting or worrying.

                           it's all over now