For 11 mintues there was silence.
No twitter rants no name calling tweets.
No fake nothing.
For 11 mintues the world was safe from trump tweets.
Wishing I could see the look on his face.
The world was free for 11 mintues.
#11mintues

It started with a kiss.
Watching beautiful sunsets.
Candle lit dinners for two.

Making plans sharing dreams.
Making love by candle light.
Something changed inside him.

Its me not you excuse came.
He open the door.
I didn't stand in his way.

Going through the back the streets of my mind lost in old memories. Laying a painful past to rest Forgetting every cruel word ever said. Crying no more tears moving on not looking back.

Time to live grow and heal replacing sadness with happiness. Killing doubt before it kills me Allowing old wounds, to heal mending my heart piece by piece.

Stepping out of the darkness and into the light . Waking up ready to open my eyes hope is reborn. Listening to my heart knowing there will always be a better tomorrow.

If I am honest....
I don't want tomorrow to come.
Because i know it will be full of
The suffocating people.

Who never listen to me.
Rubbing on anothet fake smile.
Wondering if God listens to
My cry for help.

Theres days where that I don't
Want to wake up.
Wishing I could stay in a dream.
Where I am happy and free.

Confessing my sins.
Preying for a way out.
Feeling as if there is no
Way out.

Spilling my heart onto empty
Lines trying to ease the pain.
Looking for a get out of jail
Free card.

Close to giving up because
Everytime I find happiness I lose it.
Everytime I find hope it fades.
Now I no longer know what to do.

Tonight I will prey once again.
In the hope he hears my cry for help.

Help me
To understand why
so many lies are told.
Promises made but
Never kept.
Tears caused by you
Pain in a fragile heart
You put there.
Another meaningless
Sorry said.
I never could find
Any good in you,
Because your as dark
As your soul.

I was asked what would I say to my younger self and the answer was easy.

Enjoy the time you have now because it won't last forever. Laugh at all the little things that is funny. Play everyday and enjoy the warm sun on your face.

Gaze up at the starry night sky and make pictures from the stars. Sleeping under the sliver moon light knowing that you will be safe.

Don't grow up to fast stay as young as you can. Never be scared to say what's on your mind. Listen to your heart that will true to you.

Just don't grow up to soon.

A silent misery sitting in a golden cage.
Watching the day's passing by
My heart feels like an over flowing astray
Listening to another dead man's tale
Dreaming of the moment where I can
Get on that highway to tomorrow
Leaving this day behind.

On a journey with no destination.
Healing wounds.
Mending shattered hearts piece by piece.
Much needed answers found.
Killing doubt.
Burying the past.
Boxing up haunted memories.
For giving mistakes made.
Living again.
Chasing rainbows.
Touching stars in the night sky.
Catching dreams.
Not broken but whole again.

A starless sky wrapped in an empty dream.
I remember the days where your smile was like a fine wine I loved.
Now it's left a bad taste in my mouth.
In my heart hangs a votive wreaths
Of old withered memories.
Your voice no longer shakes the
Ocean of my sleep.
You where a lesson this comic universe wanted to teach me.
Now all I want to do is forget I ever
Loved you.

Dear personal demons
For so many years you took everything from me my joy and my happiness. Everytime I was breaking free you dragged me, back to that dark place. Trying to break me reliving old memories. Using every feeling and emotion on me. Taking the fear and making grow and grow until I cried in terror. Well no more it all ends you won't ever hold me back. Use feelings or fear on me I have one last fight and its all for you. Lets go to the deepest darkest places. Dance on the flames of fire exchange a hit for hit you took my life. Now I want it back when I leave you behind know this I am not scared. A wise man once told me just have a little faith.

Every time a problem comes you want to run. It doesn't matter what anyone else wants. To selfish to stop and think about other people.

Starting things that can't be finished that just you. I should have never gave you an other chance. Yet here we are you wanting to run again.

You can't alway run when things don't go the way you want it to. Not everything is about you.

But it always ends this way everything is about you.

I have been trying for hours to think of what to say or how to make this right. Remembering everything That you said and did. Searching really hard to find That one good thing you did, but I can't find it.

All I found was promise made be never kept lies told to anyone,who would listen. You sat back and watched everyone fight. Tears fell hearts ended up shattered I was left, to pick up the broken piece of peoples lifes.

I can't forgive you for the drugs you took the money that you stole. The threat's you made the knife you held against my throat. All I ask is that you forget That I was ever born and, let me live a happy life.

A cozy bed I don't want to leave.
Enjoying the last half an hour of peace.

Before the message come flooding In
Already wanting the day to be over.


Watching as the clock ticks feeling as if each tick gets louder.

Why can't I just stay in this cozy bed
Wrapped up in his arms.

But no that kind of peace never does last.

There's always something

Behind the I am
only joking

Knowledge behind the
The I don't know

Emotions behind the
I don't care

And pain behind the I am okay

It's easy to forget.
It's easy to over look mens feelings.
Watching while they pretend to be strong.
Forgetting that they suffer just as much as
A woman does.
Women talk men hide their feelings
Because they have to be strong.
Hiding their pain.
Trying to keep everything together.
A smile to hide the weakness.
Taught to just bottle it up and keep
Going suffering in silence.
But your not weak.
Your strong it takes a lot show your pain.
We need to show men that its okay to cry
And you don't always have to be strong.
We all need someone to walk with us
And show the way, and men are no different.
Sometimes saying hi how are you can change
Someone's day.
We need show men it's okay to feel pain and it's okay to fall part.
We need to teach young boys and girls
That you can be strong and weak.
We need to teach them that asking for help
Is not a bad thing.
So to all men that on a journey and trying to
Find their way back to being them self's again.
Your not weak and you find the light in the darkness just hold on tight.

Men have always been taught
They need to be strong.
That real men don't cry society
Made them suffer in silence.

Men suffer twice as hard as women
Do, they feel that need to be strong
For us.
Isn't time to change that damaging message?.

Shouldn't we teach young minds that
It's okay to cry and not be okay?.
Shouldn't we say to men hey its okay
Not to be strong and share your feelings.

Men have feelings to even if they
Hide it and won't agree.