And when I looked up from my homework, you weren't reading on the couch
Not that I expected you to be, I'm just used to you
Day dreaming all the time, you always seem to be around
Now, no one has done the dishes in three days. I
Only use paper plates because I can't be bothered to do the cleaning, and I feel like a
Waste of space and oxygen.
You must have, too
Only I'm still here. Someone has to let the dog out every day. I
Understand why you did it, but I worry that you
Don't understand the damage you've caused. You
Only need pebbles to make tidal waves, and you were much more than a pebble. I remember you
Napping in my car,
'
Trip after trip that we took into the mountains
Have you made the right decision? I'm worried that if you could see me, you'd regret what you've done.
And you've done so much in one small motion. You were
Very broken. I know and I'm sorry. I remember that
Every time I wish you were still here.
Tomorrow, I would go to class without you
Only, they cancelled it. We're all going to the funeral instead
Because of you.
Everything was not lost, but you were
Pretty much all I've done since then is cry
Ever time I think about how you've gone, I
Remember. I remember all of time we spent together and every day that I wish I could repeat. I'm afraid you might be
Forgotten, like a statistic, like dogwood leaves in the rain or cherry blossoms in the summer before the leaves come
Even that guy who sits in the back of our physics class
Came to your funeral
Today, I'm learning to live with your decisions, even if you don't have to anymore.
This is my second attempt at NPMacrostic. I took the same concept that I tried the first time, but significantly revised it.
"And now that you don't have to be perfect, you can be good." -John Stienbeck, "East of Eden"