Mid-spring in Holland
I was strolling on the meadow
Filled with tulips and daffodils
Till the sunset
There came my shadow

Dancing were the trees
To the autumn breeze
I lay down on the soft grass
While watching the sky
As the songbirds fly

A heavenly feeling it is
To be here in paradise
Where beauty never dies
Still, it makes no sense
Without your presence

This nirvana would be nothing
Without you beside me
While counting the stars
And wondering what the galaxy holds
For you're the only one I see

Lie down with me
Let's watch the maple leaves fall
Just to have you in my arms
In this serenity
I'd give you all

His arms were wrapped around me
And I knew that I was finally free
He had the eyes that made me see
What happiness could ever be

Under the stars, we were dancing
For our love began overflowing
My heart made him my king
As I was looking for the ring

In the fresh dawn, I rose
Looking for him after a doze
I lost him; I suppose
Then my heart abruptly froze

I still did wait
I had the faith
For this love was built by fate
Even if he would return too late

Am I the only one that has their demons feasting upon their souls?
They say it is easy to tie a noose around your mind,
To overcome the urges and temptations of ending your life with a suicide
They don't know the true pain and torment that is going on in my head
An epic battle that leaves me with restless nights in bed
"End your life already" they say, as they prey on me during my weakest hours
Sometimes I give into the voices, carrying the sharp blade to my wrist
Crying as I struggle to mutter three powerful words that keeps me going
Choking on my sobs, my lungs deflate with a desire to say that God loves me
I try to convince myself that God is trying to test my faith
And to just wait, wait and wait
Then my Demons will eventually go AWAY.....



~Imperfect Desire **

Her lips taste like gold
And I smell lilacs on the wind
As a breeze brushes back her hair
She looks me in the eye
And traces a finger down my cheek
And along my jawline
Just to pull gently on my chin hair
She wraps her hands around my face
And pulls me in for a long kiss
No words need to be said
We were speaking with our souls
And I knew there was a reason for everything
In that moment

I gave you all I had.

When you were sad, I gave you my happiness. When you were weak, I gave you my strength. When you had nobody, I was your friend. When you were unloved, I loved you. Not a single 'thanks' was even said through your mouth.

Now that you have everything I have given, I have nothing. I became nothing. So, you go to other people to enjoy life, be free, give them what you have, and suddenly, they ruin you. Then, you come to me asking for help. And I reply, "I gave you all I had."