Sometimes I think we are just like the planets drifting further and further away from each other without ever realising it

are you ******* kidding me
if i could i'd slap you
across the face
and my handprint would be there for a long time.
i can't ******* stand you anymore
what the hell did i do to deserve this
what the hell did i do to be lied about
what the hell did i do to be called names
what the hell did i do to you
you know what i did?
i ******* loved you
that's what i ******* did to you.

say you love me.
say it like you mean it.
tell me you hate me.
I know you mean it.
say you can't take me.
I know you don't.
tell me I'm too much.
I know I am.

you will never care
the way I do
you can leave me
when i'm killing myself
from the inside out
when I stay and tell you
every **** time
you made me smile
or my eyes bright
just the way you like them
you leave when I cannot
concentrate on you
when i'm all over the place
but I stay when you're
drunk and high
even though I hate
how you talk and laugh
at things that hurt me
like they're a joke.
long story short,
*you hurt me every **** day

I let myself hope
And of all the guys
In my past
You were and still are
The nicest, the sweetest
And up until this moment
I thought I'd finally
Fallen for someone
Who wouldn't ever hurt me
But I guess that's what I get
For dreaming
For hoping
I think I'm done with that now
Once, twice.. coincidence
Three times...
It's common sense
It's me, not you

i seem to always
get the worst when
Christmas is right around
the corner
who knows why
but something about this time of year,
makes me so upset
so angry
so out of control
that i don't know what to do
i can get all the help in the world but
nothing helps
the way i need it to.