Dear God of Study,
I put my brain in your hands
Help me pass all my exams!

I'll be good all year round,
help my GPA from crashing on the ground.

All I need is a curvy C,
because that's what'll get me my degree.

Help.

I was cold.
I was afraid when I needed to be brave.
I was hard to love when I needed to be loving.
Losing someone can change you.

I find myself lighter, bolder and more courageous.
Love does this to me, without loving someone else,
I found love in myself.
I love myself.

I find myself dripping love because after drowning,
my pores are overflowing.

I used to be many things.
I used to be.

I feel red today,
on the edge of craving fire.

I felt green yesterday,
like a million dollars.

Hopefully tomorrow I feel purple,
a strange but delightful amount of sweet, less bitter.

Everyone talks about falling in love,
but have you ever noticed how easy it is to fall out of it?
Maybe I'm cold-blooded, maybe my snakeskin doesn't shed because I don't even recognize myself anymore.

Maybe I don't breathe like you do, a different beat, different pace.
I'm so very sorry you have to go through this.

But I survive by eating hearts whole,
that's what snakes do.

How do you tell someone that you miss them,
but without hurting them again?
How do you tell someone that means the world to you,
goodbye?
How do I tell you that I miss you without using words?

You always told me I would regret this, but what I regret the most is not being able to share my life with you anymore.

She isn't the one that got away, but
she's the one I pushed away. I'll always be sorry,
I hope you are happy because your smile will forever be tattooed in the back of my mind.

I look around to find you, in trees, in laughs, in the air.
I always questioned if I was missing out on something,
so I asked one simple question:

What would you tell someone who lost everything?

I no longer look for you because you are always around me,
I no longer look because you are the music I listen to every day and
I no longer look because I don't feel like I lost you, you never left me,  I love you.