7pm:** it's one of those nights 8pm: watch tv 9pm: keep distracted 10pm: plan for tomorrow 11pm: go to bed 12pm: wake up and try to read until I fall asleep 1am: remember your charming smile and the way you run your fingers through your hair. 2am: flip angrily through the pages that I skim over because for some reason I strongly believe that a book on love will help me get over you 3am: think about why you don't and never did love me 4am: count the hours until I have to get up and blame you for keeping me awake. 5am: you used to keep me awake for things like talking about our futures and now I'm left here with half an empty bed wondering why your future doesn't involve me 6am: wake up tired from my 15 minute sleep and wonder how even on the darkest nights the sun still manages to rise 7am: I'm drinking coffee out of a cup that used to touch your lips every morning, like me, and I know you won't be back for either of us