Like a lamb to the slaughter
She drags along her daughter

Unaware of the blood behind her
Her chest scraping the gravel ground

She pleads out to her mother
Let me walk let me free

Looking straight ahead
The mother says
Don't you dare bother me

The audacity
Of your tongue
To be shaped like a flower
But to speak like a serpent

The animosity
Of my chest
It heaves each time your near
You pollute my very air

Disgust and contempt
Don't begin to explain
How much I seeth
When I hear your vile name

Eyes are on you
Stolen glances
A chill air fills the room
Their bodies turn away
They turn to whisper
You wish you could hear what they say

As though the walls grew
Thicker
Closer

You feel your legs turn to move
Nearer to the exit

In your mind
Your invite has burned to ashes
As you go to leave
A sarcastic voice hums
"Please stay, your presences matters"

Looking deep in your eyes
I see colour but no life

You smile vacantly at me
As though you have nowhere to be

You tell me you're fine
For your connection I pine

You used to let me in
Now talking to you is a sin

Where have you gone
What have I done wrong

I reach for your touch
Maybe I'm too much

The version of me you never met
Was the best secret that I ever kept

False smiles and a witty joke
You'll never see past the positivity cloak

Why would I tell you I'm not fine
When you don't let me in your mind

Hair up and makeup done
You'll never see me in the evening sun

Meals prepped, trash stashed away
You hear only what I want to say

Even this account is best kept private
If you knew my truth, you'd never survive it

I had a dream about you
It wasn't sad, it wasn't joyful
It wasn't even blue

Oddly I dreamt of you as villian
Hands around my brother's neck
Eyes full of cruel intent

Though the nightmare left me shaken
I'd rather dream of you again
Than be rudely awaken