If some *******
should say we had a history
of any sort,
kick them in the head.
And if some *******
says were were in love,
kick them in the head
again.

I hope life is treating you well
wherever you are right now.
Just know I still think of you
for you are never forgotten in this heart.
Indeed, this heart misses you
for it is you that fills it.
That way you are never gone from me,
and though the years pass,
I can treasure what I keep in my heart
like a fire on a winter's night.

The sea
is shallow,
as is the Grand Canyon
when compared to how deep
my love is
for you.

If you make a heart
your home then surely you too
will end up homeless

8:10 PM
18/7/22

To move on
is not to find someone new-
to move on
is to have no one
but still love
yourself.

I am still learning
to give what you made me feel-
love and all that's nice

19/5/22

She's a sunflower
minding her own in a field
of thorns and thistles

6:41 PM
12/3/21

You placed your heart
upon my world and
a thousand sunflowers bloomed.

Dear diary;
looks like it's
another night of
staring at the guitar,
wishing and wondering if
these **** hands can translate
the beautiful chaos
raging in this head.

My memories
are carried by the southern breeze
across the oceans
to the one I long for.
Our goodbyes wonder endlessly
on foreign shores and
I can still hear your whispers
drift through the
darkest of nights.

True love is
knowing how to
be silence with
someone.

In a world
full of weeds and thorns,
there are sunflowers like you
that bring beauty and bliss
into an otherwise bleak world.
Few are so lucky to witness
these sunflowers-
Truly, I have been blessed
by your light.

The world's lost flowers
follow your aura
to find their way
back home.

Let us discover
different places together,
where you go, I go

3:45 PM
18/1/21

The first night we spent together
was heavenly.
How we arrived in this Hell,
I will never
understand.

Solitude is not my enemy,
Solitude is more of a pet.
I call it over in times of need-
it comes to me, sits by my side
and makes for good company.
Sometimes solitude will bite
to remind me of just how lonely
the solitary life can be.
But thanks to solitude,
I see life for what it is.

Are you drifting from me?
Or am I drifting from you?
The seas are against us and I fear
I will soon be a dot on your horizon,
the same dot at the end of a question mark
that may be forever left unanswered.

How can you say you're
empty when the universe
is inside of you?

4:16 PM
18/5/22

I don't want to know you anymore-
not how your day was,
not what you dream,
or even your name.
You cut me down and
I'm still climbing back
to who I used to be.

I remember when
you were still a sunflower-
back when you planned to reach the sun,
back before they had trimmed your leaves
and left you to wither.

I used to think
that I was invincible-
a stone heart impenetrable
to the holiest
of goddesses.
And then I met you-
just one glance and this heart
began to thaw.

I cannot believe
that you cannot believe that
you are amazing

7:32 PM
25/5/22

Words come and go but
feelings do not change, for they
remain fossilized

10:50 AM
24/9/22

I do believe in
monsters and demons and they
live in you and I

11:23 AM
4/4/21

When life gets you down,
there's always that one person
who will be there
day after day.
So what happens when
they fade into
the night?

Darkness calls me
at midnight and takes pity
on this lonely soul.
The night turns cold and
the shadows return after
another busy day of
distracting myself in light,
out of their reach
if only for
a little while.

Hi,
I know
it's been a while-
have you been okay?
It's okay if you're not okay,
you don't have to be strong
all the time.

Why do we feel so
alone when billions of us
also feel alone?

4:13 PM
19/1/21

Dear Diary;
another day,
another awkward interaction
that no one probably cares about...
except me,
of course.
Is it going to keep me up at night?
Of course.
Will it make me want to die?
Of course.

I find myself lost in the cosmos
from time to time.
Sometimes, I feel too far gone
to ever return to Earth
but that's okay,
the galaxies caress me in a
strange but splendid
silence.

I had never
felt more 'me'
than when I
was 'yours'

I want to give water
to the garden of memories
and flourish these
withered sunflowers
that kept me warm
so very long ago.

You're a sunflower
and I long to get lost in
your beautiful scent

6:33 PM
5/8/22

I worry about the day
my tank will deplete
and I won't be able
to give you my
all for I will be
running on
empty.

When someone
is going through a storm,
your presence alone can be as
powerful as a sail to
guide them home.

No one should be
responsible for your happiness.
No one should bear that pressure-
not your partner, nor family, nor friends.
Only you can determine it,
and with that happiness,
you share it with those
who deserve it.

Cancel culture is
built on the sin of
revenge and not the virtue of
forgiveness.

Who are you?
I do not know you,
yet you come to me
in my dreams and leave me
wanting more.

I hope the fragments of me
left behind in your heart will
continue to make you smile
while I am gone.

We do not get a
lot to truly care about
in this ruthless world

8:23 PM
22/7/21

You planted
sunflowers in this heart,
each one blossoming
a dream, a smile, a memory.
You touch this heart
and I am consumed
by love and
by light.

It’s funny that for
the most part, we forget that
we are so alone.

11:12 PM
25/2/20

Every love story
turns into tragedy if
you wait long enough

4:04 PM
12/4/20

Who is a poet,
without their pen?
Our existence is on the page-
it is the stories in our head
and the words in our heart.

I suppose you think
that your coldness comes from the
warmth of your heart?

2:31 PM
22/8/21

We are not
victims of our past,
we are survivors.
We learn to heal along the way-
its not like life gives us a choice anyway.

What do you do when
your head is obsessed but your
heart is detached?

7:27 AM
5/2/25

To taste her lips
is to drink her soul.

There is no soul,
it is merely an illusion
we have created to
project our desires in death onto
in hopes of an afterlife.

Dear diary;
I'm so tired.
I am so tired of wasting energy
on those who so not reciprocate.
I am so tired of proving a point
to those who do not listen.
I am so tired of forgiving the same person
over and over again.
I am so tired of putting on a happy face
when that is not the case.
I am so tired of staying silent
for my mental health.
I am so tired.