I slouch,
I lean,
I walk around aimlessly.

I hum,
Without realizing,
I yell,
Without caring.

BE MORE AWAKE

I'm falling asleep in my breakfast bagel,

And yawning into 2am Mac and cheese,
I'm crying in cars,

I'm zoning out,
I forgot to breathe.

BE MORE AWAKE
She's not worth it.
More harm then good,
Making more problems,
You don't need.

I knocked something over.
(I'm in the kitchen what the hell?)
I don't remember drinking tea..

Did I eat?

I feel faint,

NOPE

Run down to the kitchen,
Open the fridge,
Zone out,
Its 4am.

Close the fridge


Go back to sleep

I'm disposable
Its simple to you
I don't mean as much to you
As you do to me
And that's the age old problem.

I over analyze things
Thinking I'm crazy
And everybody tells me I am.

But somehow
with you
I'm always right.

And it isn't right,
The way you push me out
And it isn't okay.

Kissing you,
Was a mistake.

And I'm over it
Complaining about things I can't change
Yes
My social anxiety is annoying
You don't have to tell me.

You have to pretend to be bad,
To make up for your lack of personality.

And you still try to talk to me,
(Eventually)

Normally.

Shaky hands,
As you lift the,
Glass to your lips.

If you breathe wrong you waste ****.
That's what I've learned at least,

From you.

Stealing kisses,
Under moonlight.

We don't need drugs,
We're high off life.

Adrenaline pumping through our veins,
As we silently,
Quietly,
Run up the road,
Bare foot,
Holding flipflops,

So your mom doesn't hear us,
Running away from the house,
From our demons.

Only we exist,
In this nightly world,
Darkness surrounds us,

But its not scary,
Its comforting.

Heaving chests,
Lips connect.

We're tired from chasing a feeling,
Out of breathe from running away,

And i'll always have you,
Nothing can take you away.

Its summer, and we're teenagers,
And we're stupid.

We're getting married one day anyways.

What happens when its quiet?
When there's nothing left to say,
When woods, and fields,
Aren't miles away.
When roads are quiet and footsteps are the only thing interrupting your thoughts?
Which,
Are always louder alone.
Birds always sing louder when they're  alone.

Anxiety likes to stand on my chest.
And cool breezes, and sunsets,
And quiet roads,
seem to be the only thing,

That reminds me,


I'm me.

pick, take, place, return,
repeat,
no more,
I promise.
I return.
I pick, I take, I place, I return.
constantly.
I pick the life, I take their time, I place it back on the counter,
a week later,
and then I return.
to the wisdom creator.
the power,
to relieve me of my woes,
of everyday life.

she, the one with the computer, and the scanner,
has the power to give me other lives,
or to make me love mine,

a little more

OH GOOD GOD
trays of empty cigarettes lay displayed,
I find happiness in the strangest of places,
I'M NO GOOD AT INTRODUCTIONS,

So I'll make this sweet,
Sweet,
And well,
Brief.

DON'T GET ME WRONG!
I love to speak,
Shaky hands,
What was that equation?
WAIT!
That's not geometry!

HOLY SWEET WINE!
I'm running out if time!
****..
does this have to rhythm?!
****!

I can feel water between my toes,
Filling up my ears.
I'm in bed?
Is that normal?

I have this theory,
That normal doesn't exist..

CUZ WE'RE ALL CRAZY...




right...?