MikeyP

Apr 2016

Lavina Akari

inside

are you strong-willed?
                     nothing can break me
                     i'm already broken
did i hurt you?
                      no one can hurt me
                      you're going to
did someone hurt you?
                       no one can hurt me.
                       he ripped my heart out and i
                       still haven't found it
are you scared?
                       fearless
                       terrified
how did you wait for me for so long?
                       patience is a virtue, my friend
                       i've been on my knees for years
can you handle it?
                        i'm ready.
                       i'm so scared
your eyes lack life
                        i'm complete
                       please don't look at me
are you happy?
                         i'm at peace
                        never
do you want me to stop?
                          maybe
                         please
why won't you let me in?
                          i'm not a stranger
                         it hurts
                         please it hurts
                         stay away, please go away
                         *please make it stop

#love #thoughts #help #thought #suffering #health #inside #voices #relapse #conversation

MikeyP Apr 2016

Vacation

I want you to know I went on vacation,
I can't say I'll be back because it's amazing.
I wish you could just see,
Exactly where I'll be.
I'm free of pain, free of darkness
When you think of me, simply reminisce.
Don't think about what I did to leave,
I made my own choice and took the keys.
I'll still be here, true in your hearts
In your mind, in eyes, even your farts.
I still can't be serious when it needs,
But if I ever made you smile, it has set me free.
I wish I would've said goodbye
But it's okay, I'll be waiting in **paradise.

From a day when I was hopelessly lost. Thank God I stayed, thank God i fought.

#pain #eternal #smile #mistakes #paradise #vacation #funnynot

MikeyP Apr 2016

The Choice Is Always Yours

What do you do* when you've lost your purpose?
Stay hidden behind closed doors or rise to the surface?
What do you do when you've given everything and all?
Give up and fail or do you stand up to redeem your fall?
What do you do when you have lost more than your heart?
Put up your walls and stay alone or open up to a new start?

Either choice is always yours to make
My advice is to try again and make a few mistakes
Don't let this world turn you dark and fake
Stand up for what you believe in at all stakes
Ignore the negativity and rise to your fate
Again, what do you do when the world turns blank??

The Choice *is always yours, my friend.

I'm gonna find my purpose again

#heart #stress #positive #purpose #rise #fate #mistakes #open #redeem

MikeyP Apr 2016

My light through dark

The 25th of April was just gone
I had no time to prepare
My beautiful kids done wrong
I had to just watch and stare

The mother decided it was best
So they took the bus
The night before was a sleepless rest
Then everything rushed

Now I stay in this dark room
Holding their toys
His favorite was his vroom vroom
Because it made the most noise

The livingroom hasn't been touched
I keep the door closed
This feeling is more than enough
Cause my heart has froze

They were more than just two kids
They gave me light
My niece and nephew outdid
Everything in sight

Rose could barely make words
Cyler was a chatter
Together they were beautiful birds
And the world didn't matter

I taught them beautiful things
Like beatboxing a sound
I wanna handle what life brings
Even if they aren't around

I don't know how to stop my cry
Because I miss my loves
I wish I could've got a better goodbye
*Maybe one last hug...

These kids did more than just touch my heart. They gave me purpose to live another day

#heartbreak #lonely #regret #anxiety #kids #babies

MikeyP Apr 2016

My Every Night Love Bite

The day just turned to night.
I smile and upon my lip, I bite.
I touch my fingers on your skin.
Between my legs, you've got me pinned.
Your hair drops around your face.
Licking your lips, craving a taste.
My eyes stare right at your tongue,
Down on my lips is where you belong.
Your stomach breathes on top,
Your ***** on mine makes me stop.
I feel you grind just for a minute,
A moan leaves me lips unfinished.
Why did you stop just to smile,
Knowing I'm about to *** like the Nile.
You're such a tease and I like it,
You know just want to do and I won't fight it.
I'm gonna let you inside finally,
But you gotta wait silently.
As I turn you around,
You make a sound,
*Knowing you're about to ****...

She keeps me warm through the night

#**** #*** #roughness #liplock #feining

Apr 2016

mori walts

mirror neurons

it's not safe to love

but it's more fun than hate -

it's not easy to love

but ,

you do become brave

#love #fear #fun #*** #mirror #ptsd #identity #**** #trauma #nikkei