You don't destroy the person that you love.

I was so broken
So broken that I let myself believe
That the love you gave me
Or - the lack of it
Was what I deserved
That it's supposed to be like this
Because love always hurts

Right?

The world ***** but I'll stay by your side as I promised when you said you want to be forever mine.
Just know that I'm really trying not to give up,
The love you give me - I hope it's enough for me to wake up
because you're the only reason I still even try, and I'm sorry I'm so hard to be kept alive

All these poems we write about this one specific person.... endless words, endless hope.
Endless dissapointment.

I know my head is messed up, and honey I’m so sorry for that
I’m sorry you have to see me that way, that’s why I’m going to say what I have to say.

Even tho my life *****
Depression could leave me for once
Tears could crawl back into my eyes
And anxiety could just stop

You make me feel like I’m worth something I’m not
And I cannot thank you enough for everything that you’ve done
without even knowing you’re saving my life
Just know that you’re my sun
I love you to the moon and back

Flowers will grow faster than ever
I will finally appriciate the weather
The wind won't call  your name

I will be happy and I will smile
I'll catch up with my friends because I haven't seen them in a while
The series we used to watch together will make me bored, so I'll turn it off and listen to the playlist I didn't get to send you

Everything will be alright
I will want to live my life
Everything won't be so gray
I will even forget your name

I WILL be happy and I WILL smile

I just need to stop loving you. I need to forget your eyes.

So many lyrics running through my head, but why do I even try when I know nobody cares?

I mean, I kinda know why I haven't given up yet.
It's because the hope that's in my heart still holds my hand.

At this point I'm surprised I still even have hope.
My brain has failed but the beating in my chest says enough.

I'm selfish!
I want the whole world to myself!
I want to hold it in my arms and never let go.
But don't you worry, I'll take good care of it.
I will keep it warm and safe.
And trust me when I say: It'll be happy with me, I swear!
No tears will be shed. And even if, I'll wipe them away.

Why the **** do you keep hurting yourself?
You know the consequences, you know you’ll be in pain.
Why do you still crave that piece of happiness that will last less than a blink? I genuinely do not understand how someone can be so stupid.
So selfish! You only think about the present you, forgetting about the pain that your future self will feel.

Our love was not the one at first sight as it is in books
At first we hated each other but one conversation was all it took to get me intedrestet in who you are
We talked and we talked and we talked and talked
We grew strong togheter, made each other feel loved,
We worked and we worked we worked and worked
Hard work is not always worth it though

So glad it paid out
Best reward in the whole world

So I guess this is the end?
No more laying in your bed. No more kissing in the rain.
I can't even say your name.


I knew it would eventually end. But I didn't expect it would take this turn.
I'm in pain and I am hurt.
I completely lost myself.
I don't know what to do.
I'm afraid I won't get through.

This is scary, this is sad.
I know it's not possible, but I want you back.
Yeah, we used to fight a lot.
But I always knew what's wrong.
Now you left me so confused.

Was it me or was it you?

The stars shine so bright
I bought you the shirt you liked
We danced alone in the dark
I don't think it gets better than that

My problem is that I stick to things that make me smile
Just for a while
Just for a minute
One breath of fresh air
One decent memory and I'm already lost inside those things
or poeple
Mostly people if i come to think of it

I cling to people who I think I need
But turns out I really don't need them as much as I think
But I tell mysef that they help me to grow and spread my wings and teach me to just go with the flow
They take me high
But then there's the fall

Honey
They don't help you grow
They make you feel high
They make you smile


But drugs aren't good for you my darling
You'll get addicted
And those ******* falls...
They already make you feel so low

Why do you crave a second of happiness even though you know that later you'll regret it all?

It's been a while since we last talked
How have you been? Do you stay hydrated and smile a lot?
I've heard she makes you smile more than I ever did
I'm really glad you found someone better than me

Okay, I won't bother you anymore
You don't have to pick up the phone
Don't call me back, even block my number if you want

Just know that I'm here
Even if that's a bad thing

I gave you everything that I could
I pushed all my boundries just to please you
You say that you don't believe I care because I didn't kiss you once?
This is so pathetic even for my standards

You treat me like **** all the ******* time
But you expect me to be yours? This doesn't add up

The saddest part is that I can't let you go
And I won't ever leave you because I'm dumb

I wanted to help, and you know that I did
But you wouldn't let me in
You just wouldn't open up
You didn't want me to break your heart.

Or maybe that was to protect me?
Hide me somewhere your demons won't bite
But if you're falling, just know i'll catch you
I'm not afraid, even of your darkest parts

Why do I keep trying so ******* hard to change you
I'm not the one who made you
I can't pull all your parts out and put them in the correct place
I can't teach you how to hurt me less
I thought that I could fix you with my love
You made me think I'm the one who should fix all your flaws

We're so toxic
Yet so good
We do everything we shouldn't do
We make the rules
And then we break them

So much love
But so much anger
We do everything we shouldn't do
We're not meant to be and we both know it's true

But yet we're here
Still going strong
Making each other feel so low

We should've ended this so many times
But being apart hurts even more
Than just pure hatred

I can't keep trying to make you love me
I'm so tired
It's like a job and I'm not even getting paid

I do everything to make you happy
I do everything to please you
I've changed myself completly
For you

You make me feel like I'm

w o r t h l e s s

You say you care
You ask for another chance
You say that you'll change
You say that you need me

And what do I do?

S t a y

I'll never get away from you.