I remember my childhood yard
There was this big tree
I played for hours there
Under the dark shadow

There was this big tree
Sometimes gone unnoticed
Under the dark shadow
Seemed the place for me

Sometimes gone unnoticed
Lost from the world
Seemed the place for me
I've lost my way home

Lost from the world
Wanting to be found
I've lost my way home
No one looks for me

I just want to run
Away from all this action
I just want to scream
To let off some steam
I just want to sleep
And hear not another peep
I just want to go
Away from all this sorrow
I dont want to feel
Because it's all too surreal
I dont want to talk
Because I'm still in shock
I want to stop my heart from breaking
And my head from aching
I want my stomach to stop turning
And my eyes to stop burning
I want to go to a place
Where no one knows my face
I just want to walk through the doorway
And run to a place far away.

I cant explain how stupid i feel
To ever think this all was real
It's all i think about day and night
And in my mind its such a fight
At night i can not sleep
Because my thoughts are that deep
I let you get inside my head
And let myself be mislead
My hearts in pain
I'm going insane
All i want to do
Is go back and redo
Everything i ever said
And every tear i ever shed
Because in the end
I cant comprehend
Why i was so weak
And what made you unique
Now All i want is for this all to be over
And nothing more to be leftover
Because I want again to feel strong
And feel like i belong
But I dont know how much more i can take
Before i finally break..

She was a bright red rose in the field of dandelions
Reminding me there is no need for compliance
The shimmer of her petals drew people from afar
They shinned brighter than any evening star
For a ***** on the finger left them in fear
Why was she like this?
All alone
So afraid
That is when I got brave and came to her aid
Only to find she needed no upgrade
She was bright
She was brave
She was light
She forgave
And no one could take that away
She was a bright red rose in the field of dandelions
Reminding me there really is no need for compliance

Sunshine lightens the day
Masking the darkness inside
Letting you forget
Letting you smile
But when night falls
The portal opens to
The darkness inside
Consuming all Good
And we feel
Alone.
Sad.
Scared.
Tossing and turning
Can't breath
Hearts in pain
Only awhile longer
For the sun will come again
And hide all pain.

Everyday i walk down these halls Theres laughing
Theres talking
And everyone's rushing.
But today was different.
The halls were bleak
And it seemed as though nobody was beside me or in front of me
No laughing
No talking
Just whispers
And even with my head bowed
I can feel their stares
Not normal stares either
They’re stares of uttermost disgust and disgrace
As i walked forward the whispers get louder
My stomach drops
My eyes burn
And everything become blurry
The first tear rolls down my face and
I taste the salt as it hits the top of my lip
My nose fills with snot
I sniff it in
Trying to hide and evidence of my weakness
But they know
And to them
Its satisfaction.

The air was sweet and crisp
The sun was bright and warm
My heart was full
On a summer day

The world seemed right
My life complete
Happiness defined
On a summer day

Grey clouds appeared
Rain with my tears
Broken and lost
On a summer day

I walk away from joy
I fall away from love
I trip on my fallen spirit
On a summer day

I have become a shadow
I am the rain
I lost my life
On a summer day

Like a plague in my mind, I didn't ask for you here
But there's no antibiotic, you won't disappear
Musing of times long past
In my mind, I feel I am trapped
The people around me have changed
You and I are estranged
The reflection shows my years in the sun
But my mind is cast back to when I was young
Like a plague in my mind, I didn’t ask for you here
Thoughts swirling around making all things unclear
Keep concealing
Stop feeling

They said they couldn't stay
I don't know how to feel
My soul taken away

Rain fell hard that day
I don't know how to heal
They said they couldn't stay

Their love they took away
Hard for my heart to deal
My soul taken away

I tried and tried to sway
Convinced their love was real
They said they couldn't stay

I watched them walk away
My existence became surreal
My soul taken away

There is nothing I can say
As I eat my final meal
They said they couldn't stay
My soul taken away

For the first time I saw the light
And for once I felt alright
The sun shined on my skin
And I could feel it all through in
The wind flew through my hair
And I got tingles everywhere
I laughed my hardest laugh
But not on your behalf
For once I felt alright
Because I saw the light

At the moment i cant tell you the pain i feel,
I can only wish for it soon to heal.
The sound of your voice still lingers,
As does the gentle touch of your fingers.
At the moment this all feels like an illusion,
And causes me too much confusion.
The pain of not knowing if this was real,
And what you said isn't what you feel.
The pain of not knowing if your okay,
Or how your getting through another day.
The unknowns cause the most pain,
And make my tears fall down like rain.
I hope this wasn't my mistake,
And this all wasn't  just a fake.
My feelings for you remain the same,
In hopes this wasn't just a game.
I long for you now that we are apart,
But as in my mind, you live in my heart.
I miss you more than words can say,
And I hate that we are so far away.
But know i think of you every day
And want to be with you in every way.
I truly hope this hasn't ended,
Because for me its been so splendid.
There is only one more thing left on my mind,
So here it is I'll let it unwind.
I love you..
More than i ever knew.