Another's now...
I'm not sure he won't
hurt her... but there's
some relief knowing
I'll never be a reason
for her ache & tears
most especially
when it comes
to her heart.*
it hurts that
she's gone but
there's no sacrifice
without pain... at least
I loved her enough to know
wasn't good enough for her.
My life is hell...she's an Angel.
I can't drag her out of paradise
she can't save me from my flames.

Both need love
Can't we try to find it
in us rather than crying
for those who clearly don't
need us? I mean... is there no
way two people can find the
satisfaction they seek in each
other rather than keep
hurting for the rightful
wrong ones. I'm
willing to try...
Tell me when
you're and
we kick off.

Thing he knew's when he found
love... he wasn't going to lose it again... for his second would but
be his last... the one who'd give
him a chance would find forever.
He seldom loved, he seldom
trusted but when he did...
it was once and forever...
forever and for always.
When he loved... he
loved obsessively...
He loved like it
was a matter
of life and
death.

I don't know if it's you
but I know
you're
better than alone...
alone is cold...
cold as Hell...
You've brought
me some warmth.
That's reason
enough, I don't
need a million
more reasons.

she Often begged me to have
hope and expect
now she often has hope and expects me to beg.

I'm afraid someday
I'll get tired of trying
you make it so hard
to love you
& albeit I try my best,
each day
that wanes by
my best gets more
and more inadequate
& brings me closer to
that moment I loathe
the moment when I
crawl back to the shell,
that absurd moment
when I give up...*
I love you... but I'm
starting to doubt it means
anything to you anymore
& that doubt hurts me to
the core... I love you but
I hate being unsure...
I Love You

Do what they Love
Others
Love what they do

I want to "unbreak" your heart, to steal all the hurt
I want to look for every lost piece if you let me please
I want to scour the floor and sweep every corner
so that I can gather all the pieces I shattered
and steadily and carefully locate where each piece fits
on the puzzle of your big broken heart
I want to unbend the crooked by the impact
and fold those straightened curves to bring her shape back
I can't make the cracks totally disappear
but I wish I could, I want to weld the spaces with hot friendship
to lock out the air of doubt and despair
I want to incinerate the bad memories with fire of my passion
so that you won't remember the same fire burnt you
I also want to paint the welded whole with the crimson if romance
so that placed back on the shelf of reality
you can be purchased by someone you deserve
someone who'll appreciate your sacrifices
the absurdity & melancholy hidden underneath the coating
I so much want to heal all the wounds and the scars
I don't know whether you will let me in or shut the doors
but whatever you do, I deserve it for causing you pain
I want to be an adulteration that cures its malady
because I'm remorseful for what happened

So many things
the eyes were no meant to see
very many tales
ears weren't meant to hear
reeking stench
the nose was not meant to smell
a million stuff
the tongue wasn't meant to taste
but because of this
heart no longer sings
the world's in ecstasy
no more inspiration wells
it's no more joy living here
we're a babel, Chinese and French
we've turned universe into Hell
Humanity's rough, survival's tough
to nowhere we're going in haste
chained ourselves, lost the keys

If I were to pluck a star from
the sky each time life disappoints
me there would be no sparkle
even on a clear night. But if
I'm to pluck them
each moment
I overcome the
disappointments
I'd pluck the Sun
and the sky itself...