Who said that we need water to drown?
I am drowning in your eyes
And I can't seem to find the surface
The more I try to escape
The more lost I become

*I slowly losing hope

Darling,
You are the non-existent full-stop
To my never ending question marks

To love you,
Is like firing a gun
That has no bullets
p o i n t l e s s

Because,
The more I love you,
The more ink gone to waste
And it's fading--the question marks,
As they almost fill the whole blank paper up
And still, no full-stop.

Oh, by the way,
It's not my love that fades,

*My hope does.

Since when numbers became so important,
That even an "i love you"
Doesn't seem to mean anything
Without an "i love you too"?

The Sky cries once in a while
From missing The Land too much

But look at The Land,
He grows flowers from her tears,
Collect them for his organs to breathe

It started with a silly crush
Over someone who I can't even touch
Someone unreachable
So unreachable that it felt so surreal

I kept denying the butterflies
I tried to shooed them away
I kept telling myself
That it was nothing

And by the time I realized it
The supposed-to-be silly crush
Has turned into something bigger
Something that I can't no longer control

It was not just a slight admiration anymore
And it made me wonder
How did he manage to make me love him,
Without even looking at me?

What if I find someone who sings me to sleep every night
But I still hear your voice even in a crowded room?

What if I find someone who makes my heart beat so fast that it might burst
But my breathing almost stops every times you walk by?

What if I find someone whose touch is as warm as the blanket
But I can't drink my morning coffee without thinking about your brown orbs?

What if I find someone who takes me to another world with his spell
But I can't even  imagine myself being in different picture with you?

*Darling,
What if you have found someone new,
But I can't even get rid of your shadow?

Today
I tried to write something about love
But your name was the only words written on the whole paper
Like having them clouded inside my head wasn't enough

And it scared me
*Since when did you become this important to me?