amber

amber Jul 2018

disappointed and embarrassed,
my heart is heavy.

you make me sad...
not because of who you are,
but because of who i imagined you to be.

#stood #up #sad #disappointment #dread #embarrassment #contempt #regret #confusion #down

amber Jun 2018

hungry

my bed is swallowing me whole
my negative thoughts are
consuming my being
i feel so heavy
i understand why my bed
can no longer support me
and has decided
to eat me instead

i feel full of lead

#depression #flashbacks #upset #unhealthy #habits

amber Jun 2018

skin

i think your scars are pretty.
i know,
they are meant to reflect pain,
or suffering,
or both.
but i cant stop looking at them,
and seeing how much beauty,
they add to your skin.

#scars #imperfections #love

amber Jun 2018

inquiry

alone but never lonely
or
lonely but never alone

which
are
you?

inspired by bexey... does being alone fulfill you and make you happy?...

#isolation #loneliness #content

amber Jun 2018

my bedroom

but then you are taken back to the same four, blank, white walls
that stare you in the face and speak: you are nothing at all

#depression #anxiety #cycle #seasonal

amber Jun 2018

do you even care

i scream until my throat hurts
until it feels scratched
by your jagged fingernails

i scream until the pain numbs
and dulls a bit

i scream until i cry

tears uncontrollably streaming down my face

#pain #emotional #hysterical #upset #depress #indifference #neglect

amber Jun 2018

lucid

the demon in my dream
was friendly
he was much nicer to me
than you ever were

#past #feelings #current #sadness #upset #dream #nightmare #lucid