If there was a heaven
It was meant for dogs.

heaven would have
no war or segregation
just love and bacon

non would be turned away
because a dog doesn't know if your gay
he wouldn't even care anyway

heaven would be a place where
you get your own comfy chair
complete with dog hair
and playful barks is a prayer


Heaven would be ****-rugs
and green lawns
garbage cans
and sprinklers
summer
and love.

if there is a heaven
its where my dog belongs
because that's where hes from along

I don't know what i'm doing anymore.
The pen sits in my hand .
The paper on my desk.
but the words come all jumbled up
tangled together
in anger and frustration.

This used to be so easy as a child.
I could throw a stone.
and strike a muse.
but now the stones are boulders
and the muse is a pay stub.  

Has life really won me over?
am I really all used up
My mind dry
parched from the absents of words.

I really dont have a reason to be mad
at least she called this year

I had 16 great birthdays with out her
I did just fine with out her
I learned how to braid my hair with out her
I learned how to dress myself
I learned how to drive with out her
I learned how to work with out her
I learned how to cry with out her.
I learned how to run with out her
Hell, I even graduated with out her

I grew up with out her

I dont need her

I did everything with out her

I'm going to go to college with out her
I'm going to marry a nice man with out her
I'm going to have kids with out her
because there isn't a **** thing she can teach me about loving my kids.

it still hurts.
why dont you want me?
is it because I dont need you?

We scream our names in the wind
Only to have it thrown back in our faces.
We paint our faces and scar our souls
To keep our shaky graves
And never let our death be forever.

For the love of god
Let this summer be eternal
Because I don't know if I can survive
This winter with out you.