I once glowed.
my belly round
my smile wide

I was thrilled
with what could become
from the life I was given.

I once cried
my eyes red
my spirit broken

I was tortured
with what could become
from the life I was given.

There is a hole in my ocean
and all the water is leaking through,
washing away the truth
washing away  all I ever knew.

You came along in the storm
You made the sea calm
It worried me because
I thought it wouldn't last long.

you made a hole in my ocean,
letting the water drip through
giving me dry land
showing me things I never knew.

I know this ring on my finger
Is the heaviest thing your heart ever had to carry,
and you crumble every single time
I tell you I'm married.

You say I'm too young
and I should take time to choose,
but deep down you know you would do the same
If you were in his shoes.

I know things seem bleak
and that I'm really really dumb,
But with out him
even the bruises feel numb.

One time a friend said she would hang out with me
One time, I waited outside for 4 hours because she was on the way.
One time it was so cold my fingers were blue.
I forgot my gloves. I didn't think I needed them.
One time my dad said he hated me and he was tired of my ****
because I was 4 hours late to my little brother's birthday.
I could hear him crying in the car.
One time I felt the most pain I ever have.
One time I had a friend
she was a friend.

Once nothing wondered if it mattered.
Nothing wondered what It was like to be somthing.
because the only thing to stop nothing,
was nothing
its wish was granted.

So nothing became something.

Somthing was so eager to learn
so eager to see
taste
smell
feel
so Something wished to feel Everything
and out of that wish came Everything.

Everything grew and grew without limits
and as Something became a part of Everything
It forgot.
it forgot its mission, its reason of being.
"Do I matter?"

Somthing divided and became Many.
Many started to search for the importance of Nothing.
But Something went wrong and Many were confused.
As hard as Many tired to find the answer they failed.
Something was lost and Many had forgotten the question.

Many thought they had a better question.
Many lost touch with something,
and Many lost Everything,
Many could care less about anything or nothing.

Many only cared about staying Many.

Many started to believe that there was always Something,
and Nothing never existed.
And that is how Many lost its' self.
Many lost the quest.

Some would find a glimmer of hope.
They would join together and find Something
they found Something beautiful.
but they were few.
and sometimes Something would not be found for a long time
they would try to find it by dancing and singing and lighting candles.

But sometimes few were lucky
they would realise that together they themselves were Something
and that they were beautiful....

..and that they were Something because they had eachother
and in each other they had Everything
and when you are something that has everything...

...the answer is simple
Nothing is really ever important...
Nothing really ever matters.

break me.
take me.
leave me be.
I love you.
i hate you.
Why cant you see?
You drive me insane.
you keep me together.
please, answer my plea.

Im sorry im this way.
Im sorry I can't say
the way you love me,
makes me run away.