my scars don't define me

my scars don't define me Jan 2016

i didn't know that
letting you go
would end up hurting me the most
and making me do everything
to keep from going back to you

#heartbreak #sad #depressed #relationship

Jan 2016

oni

i cant tell if it hurts or if its whats best

if pretending
that i dont love you
is the only way
to stay close to you,
i swear i will do it
a million times over

#love #sad #pain #relationships #hurt #best #confusion #close #pretend

Dec 2015

oni

saw right through me

she looked at me
knowingly
and said,
*"for you to
hate
someone
that much,
you must have
once loved them
just as
equally."

#love #feelings #hate #relationships #emotions #relatable

Dec 2015

oni

dont melt away

some days i wonder
why you still
remain;
other days
i find comfort
in your
lingering

like a patch of
snow
in the dead
of July -

i dont know
what the ****
youre still
doing here,
but i know
that i am
comforted
by the oncoming
promise of the
cold

#love #hate #relationships #memories #snow #seasons #cold #hot #confusion #melt

my scars don't define me Dec 2015

snowflake

i am like a snowflake
i think i am beautiful
for just an instant
and then i am gone
in the blink of an eye
gone from the cold frozen tundra
of the world

#sad #depressed #winter #suicidal #snow

Dec 2015

oni

pointless?

they always said,
"the only one
who will always
be there for you
is yourself",

but ive always thought -
if no one else
cares
about me,
why should i
care
about myself?

#self #harm #depression #life #illness #relationships #people #mental #care

my scars don't define me Nov 2015

HIGH

I'm only tripped out
by the thought of you
and burning by
the feeling of your hands
on my hips
but the sad thing is
when i'm sober
the high goes away
and reality hits

#sad #drugs #depressed #relationships #high