when i think of the lines and scratches
that scatter my hips and thighs
i realize that each one
is a release
a small bliss
of the sizable pain inside me

death inspires me
like a dog inspires a rabbit
or a lion inspires a gazelle
or a storm on the horizon inspires a bird
or a wolf inspires a lamb
or me whenever i think of you
when you took the only thing i had left

my sanity.

a best friend
is someone you can
laugh
cry
make jokes
draw
write
listen
observe
watch
and
LOVE
until the end of time

I never knew
how much you could help someone
until they were in need
of someone
or something
when they felt alone
and tired
and sad
and didn't know what it felt like
to be cared for

I had no clue
that standing in the room
screaming at the top of my lungs
would cause
no one to even acknowledge
my existence

my mind has been lost
in a maze
full of
thoughts and feelings
that in a while
will **** me