i sat alone


collecting my thoughts


i was caught up in


a beehive of an evening


infested with dreams


drunken feelings


fixed catalysts


kick starting the slow burn


down to our cells


chemicals mixing


+ im overreacting


as i imagine half my life


hanging from the ceiling


WE'RE ALL JUST CHEMICALS MIXING

It's past 9 o'clock now
So I know you should be asleep
The nurse
Passed through for her rounds
The machines
Humming and murmuring
With an electric glow
I walk through the corridors
To your place of rest
Last one on the left
Your eyes are closed
As I enter the room
You smile, weakly
My eyes
Filled with grief
Deciding whether to tell you
How many hours I cried
Alone in the shower
In our bed
Without your warmth
So I sit with you for a while
Until you drift away
I'll be here
I'll help answer all the questions
And I hear you say
You think they'll let you go home tomorrow
But my love
You've never left home

Such a shameful waste of love
So goodnight

Don't leave me*
I will let you
Break*  my  *heart.

You are every poem that I could never read twice

I speak my heart
through hand and mind
I reach out to others
but alone I hide

I speak my heart
even if if indirect
I try to hold on
but my life is a wreck

I speak my heart
though no one listens
I cry and I shout
it makes no difference

I speak my heart
up to the sky
there is no response
so you answer this, why