Hello again,
Insomnia my old friend,
Keeping me awake with thoughts
I can't        s
                 h
                     a
                        k
                     e
Like how I increasingly don't understand
                               people
                
                 Cause maybe I'm not able,

                      **Understand-able

The HEART wasn't made to HATE
                    
               It's the HEAD that HOLDS onto that

                                        To HIDE the HURT

I wish I wish I wish
I wish it were different
I wish it didn't happen to her
I wish it didn't end like this
I wish I wish I wish
I wish she didn't use the razor
I wish she didn't cut away the pain
I wish she didn't carve the evils into her flesh
I wish I wish I wish
I wish they didn't torture her with their words
I wish they didn't bury her in their anger
I wish they didn't destroy her soul
I wish I wish I wish
I wish they found her earlier
I wish she was saved
I wish she wasn't found with her arms slit open
I wish I wish I wish
I wish her blood hadn't completely drained out of her body
I wish in the midst of the blood the words 'I'm sorry' didn't exist
I wish it were different
I wish I wish I wish

I’m sorry

I’m sorry I let you down

I’m sorry

I’m sorry I never came around

I’m sorry

I’m sorry I pushed you away

I’m sorry

I’m sorry

I wish you would stay

But it can’t be that way

I’ll **** you

You’re my prey

I miss you

I need you

But you have to stay away

I’ll hurt you

Like I do

Every single day

I’m sorry

I’m sorry

It has to be this way.

Why did I do it?
I destroyed the person inside me.
But the outside is living, breathing, just fine.
People don't notice,
I'm missing the light in my eyes
I'm missing the smile you would see every day.
I'm not really missing anything important.

I'm not even missing.
Just lost.