we were once in heaven
now we’re in straight hell
your voice rings like a bell
deep inside my mind
i want you to be mine

a year ago today
i was in the sky
i was on a flight
trying to say goodbye

it was on my birthday
when i was finding my way
out of this ****** city
into a bright new city

it was on the 7th floor
when i finally became torn
looking out below
trying to decide
if this was the closet
i’d ever feel to home

my body shakes from the cold
that’s normal - at least its what i’m told
my whole body shakes
its like i’m an earthquake
an earthquake inside
waiting to break my mind
its so hard to tell
when i hear the bell
if all of this is truly real

stuck inside these lines
i’m only trying to find
why you won’t be mine

i’d like to be out in the sea
i’d be on a wave
jumping over top
waiting for the crash
avoiding the undertow
i’d doing like i did as a kid
i’d soak up the sun
and play in the sand
just enjoying
the ocean breeze
and the ocean view

i find a peace in these lines
with a black colored pen
whether i’m quoting my favorite band
or writing my thought

I CAN
fight these feelings
control those channels
and organize the walls’ panels
and sing my favorite song

all in between these light blue lines
everything turns fine

every time I hear this song
it makes me fear the long
thay I once had.
that I feel for now.
because this will never be the same
not when I say your name
and not when I hear their names
I want to go back
when things weren’t out of whack
when we lived okay
and things weren’t all messed up
when it was you and i.
and no one else. involved.
when it came to me and you.
I just want it back.